The storm calms
Things have shifted again with Boi. We have little new to say, and I'm frustrated that text conversations are so very limited and easy to misinterpret. Several differences of opinion have been raised. And neither the phone nor texting nor letter writing has been able to fully express my wants, desires, views of matters, etc. I got an iPhone a week ago, and while texting on the go is nice, the platform is limiting for expression of deep concepts. The new relationship energy is waning for me. I love her. I do, but I am not obsessed with her. I find myself sometimes bored. It may be that this is her third week away from me after just two weeks together. It may be my life just getting busier.
It may be something getting resolved for me on a deep level, or the terror of giving my heart to someone who is aggressively seeking new relationships all the time even when she has five or six current relationships to manage now. I'm not sure. And I will be doing mostly a Boi fast while in Maine. After which a hopefully joyful sexy reunion. And we will see how that works itself out. I'm not as tied to the outcome as I was.
It may be something getting resolved for me on a deep level, or the terror of giving my heart to someone who is aggressively seeking new relationships all the time even when she has five or six current relationships to manage now. I'm not sure. And I will be doing mostly a Boi fast while in Maine. After which a hopefully joyful sexy reunion. And we will see how that works itself out. I'm not as tied to the outcome as I was.