The nature of obsession. And alcohol
Today I topped my boi by text. It was hot. But it was under the influence of rum. I felt not myself and it was liberating and also disorienting. How am I not myself? How am I completely myself but give myself permission to be other than myself?
So that leads to several questions that need serious consideration. Am I only fearless under the influence? and how is that not in my best interests? what holds me back from the expression of this in my normal consciousness? And how can I change that? What would change if I was able to tap into this power without stimulant or depressive substances? What would change if it were possible to go there without booze?
Would I label myself differently? Would I order my world differently? Would I leave my carefully constructed existence?
So that leads to several questions that need serious consideration. Am I only fearless under the influence? and how is that not in my best interests? what holds me back from the expression of this in my normal consciousness? And how can I change that? What would change if I was able to tap into this power without stimulant or depressive substances? What would change if it were possible to go there without booze?
Would I label myself differently? Would I order my world differently? Would I leave my carefully constructed existence?