sleepy time
ahh yes, so it's 9:30, and i'm tired, and ready for bed. unfortunately, this is pretty late for me to be up.. ohh dear, yah, okay, my secret's out. ah well. it'll be fine.
so how is everybody???? do i ever see anyone?? before school, after school, and the small break, of course... so where's everyone when i'm so busy? no idea. none of my friends really do anything i do. so i'm talking to some new people.. i suppose. no, i'm not really. glad to have choir and cp with steph, though. and mark always makes the effort to see me at break.. and in the halls? i say hi to the rest?
oh dear. i'm not losing anyone, i don't intend on that at all. so if anyone is thinking i am... you've got a veryyy wrong impression. geez, i hope no one thinks that! i just - really don't have all that much free time! and man, i've gotta schedule like crazy. but i guess not very many other ppl this age really do that.. so even if i were to make plans with someone, they'd most likely either forget, or do something else. that's what's seemed to happen so far anyways.
and when i do get to see everyone - that's great. but nothing's really different. like, tonight, for example, was so much fun at the beginning! soo wonderful to see all the girls together! but then, it was like normal, like i haven't really missed anything really, except some inside jokes, which i would have missed anyways probably.
but i don't mean to sound like everyone should be all like "oh wow, laurel! haven't seen you for so long! this is so great" or anything, cause, well, obviously not. and anyways, i know the people who i have been keeping in really good touch with (jess, sam, etc) but i really want to talk to the rest! like krissy, this sucks, and sarah, and katie, tay, and everybody!!!! i know it doesn't seem like i'm really making the effort, but i really really want to .. i just am not so able right now. i expect that as the next few weeks go by, my schedule will even out more, but til then, don't leave me.
actually, this isn't some pity journal. i know no on
so how is everybody???? do i ever see anyone?? before school, after school, and the small break, of course... so where's everyone when i'm so busy? no idea. none of my friends really do anything i do. so i'm talking to some new people.. i suppose. no, i'm not really. glad to have choir and cp with steph, though. and mark always makes the effort to see me at break.. and in the halls? i say hi to the rest?
oh dear. i'm not losing anyone, i don't intend on that at all. so if anyone is thinking i am... you've got a veryyy wrong impression. geez, i hope no one thinks that! i just - really don't have all that much free time! and man, i've gotta schedule like crazy. but i guess not very many other ppl this age really do that.. so even if i were to make plans with someone, they'd most likely either forget, or do something else. that's what's seemed to happen so far anyways.
and when i do get to see everyone - that's great. but nothing's really different. like, tonight, for example, was so much fun at the beginning! soo wonderful to see all the girls together! but then, it was like normal, like i haven't really missed anything really, except some inside jokes, which i would have missed anyways probably.
but i don't mean to sound like everyone should be all like "oh wow, laurel! haven't seen you for so long! this is so great" or anything, cause, well, obviously not. and anyways, i know the people who i have been keeping in really good touch with (jess, sam, etc) but i really want to talk to the rest! like krissy, this sucks, and sarah, and katie, tay, and everybody!!!! i know it doesn't seem like i'm really making the effort, but i really really want to .. i just am not so able right now. i expect that as the next few weeks go by, my schedule will even out more, but til then, don't leave me.
actually, this isn't some pity journal. i know no on