Cause it's been eons.....
It's been forever since I have posted anything of substance to my LJ. I can't really say that things have gotten any better over time but they sure as hell got worse. The last event we went to was Crown. We have not been to a practice in ages. I don't have the energy for it. Frankly speaking there is so much going on that the only thing that would make me feel better at a practice would be to put on my armor and beat the shit out of something. I'm so frustrated with my life it really makes me sick.
I gave up on the working from home cause I was so depressed and could not get out of bed anymore. I just didn't give a rat's ass about anyone or anything. Now I have meds and as soon as I began to feel better I am told that my grandmother has pancreatic cancer with lymphadenopathy. She will be 90 in December if she makes it to there. You see she also has a pacemaker and is really not doing good. The dr's cannot do surgery cause she will not make it and chemo treatments will only make things worse. She has been given 3 to 6 months to live.
She has to go for more testing. So today I spent all day with her and my aunt at Saint Mary's Hospital while she went for her pre-ops. Tomorrow she goes for a biopsy for the "bumps" on her neck and then in the afternoon she has to go for a gastric scope. Cause on top of this she also has a bacterial ulcer. Oh wait it gets even better she is allergic to pretty much every anti-biotic out there and about a million and one other things. So months ago when she went to emergency complaining of pains in her stomach is when they discovered a mass on her pancreas and her allergy to the meds to heal her ulcer. But seeing as she is allergic to the meds they never gave her anything else to get rid of the bacteria. The dr in Emergency was nice enough to take her on as his patient and give her follow up appointments all over the place. It's only until now that I have been going with her because when my aunt goes with her they get no results. My grandmother is deaf and my aunt is mentally handicapped and misses alot of info when told things. So now I have to go with her for everything. I really did want to go back to work but how can I when I need to be with granma??
To add cherries to this cake. The oh so wonderful place !! (note sarcasm) we moved into last year is a piece oh crap. Our lazy landlord promised to fix our front stairs last year before we moved in but it never got done. We have been up his ass to get them fixed but still to this date they have not been. In May our ceiling began to leak. Now when we looked at the place he mentioned to us that the roof had been redone last year. So all that needed to be done was repaint the ceiling. We thought no problem we can do it but once it began to leak we said fuck it. There are just to many repairs to be done in this ancient house. He won't spend the money and upgrade anything or fix it either. He just puts "band aids" and waits till it falls apart. So we took pics and videos and have saved all our notices from Canada Post saying that our mail was being with held for random reason...... Fill in the blank here. And we are going to the Regie du Logement cause i'm fed up.
The only good things to come out of this is that James' parents general contractor is building a triplex on the South Shore and he wants people he knows to rent it to. So he approached us and well come this May we will be moving into a brand new house. It's a 5 and a half. Here is the catch my mom and my aunt will be coming to live with us. My aunt has lived with my grandmother all her life and knows nothing else and can't (does not) to be on her own. I don't mind so much living with them but when do we get to start our lives as a married couple and have kids?? I guess time will tell how the chips will fall. Till then this is my life and there does not seem to be an exit strategy here.
Another good point is that Rick (guy who is building house) well his wife is the director of a daycare. Seeing as I am qualified to be an Early Childhood Educator and they are looking to hire they want me. And I mean ASAP. My resume has been sent in and she is calling the school board (cause job is on the South Shore) and getting them to push my police check along so they can hire me now. I just hope that everything falls into place so all this is possible.
Well that's it for now. Sorry for the length of this.
I gave up on the working from home cause I was so depressed and could not get out of bed anymore. I just didn't give a rat's ass about anyone or anything. Now I have meds and as soon as I began to feel better I am told that my grandmother has pancreatic cancer with lymphadenopathy. She will be 90 in December if she makes it to there. You see she also has a pacemaker and is really not doing good. The dr's cannot do surgery cause she will not make it and chemo treatments will only make things worse. She has been given 3 to 6 months to live.
She has to go for more testing. So today I spent all day with her and my aunt at Saint Mary's Hospital while she went for her pre-ops. Tomorrow she goes for a biopsy for the "bumps" on her neck and then in the afternoon she has to go for a gastric scope. Cause on top of this she also has a bacterial ulcer. Oh wait it gets even better she is allergic to pretty much every anti-biotic out there and about a million and one other things. So months ago when she went to emergency complaining of pains in her stomach is when they discovered a mass on her pancreas and her allergy to the meds to heal her ulcer. But seeing as she is allergic to the meds they never gave her anything else to get rid of the bacteria. The dr in Emergency was nice enough to take her on as his patient and give her follow up appointments all over the place. It's only until now that I have been going with her because when my aunt goes with her they get no results. My grandmother is deaf and my aunt is mentally handicapped and misses alot of info when told things. So now I have to go with her for everything. I really did want to go back to work but how can I when I need to be with granma??
To add cherries to this cake. The oh so wonderful place !! (note sarcasm) we moved into last year is a piece oh crap. Our lazy landlord promised to fix our front stairs last year before we moved in but it never got done. We have been up his ass to get them fixed but still to this date they have not been. In May our ceiling began to leak. Now when we looked at the place he mentioned to us that the roof had been redone last year. So all that needed to be done was repaint the ceiling. We thought no problem we can do it but once it began to leak we said fuck it. There are just to many repairs to be done in this ancient house. He won't spend the money and upgrade anything or fix it either. He just puts "band aids" and waits till it falls apart. So we took pics and videos and have saved all our notices from Canada Post saying that our mail was being with held for random reason...... Fill in the blank here. And we are going to the Regie du Logement cause i'm fed up.
The only good things to come out of this is that James' parents general contractor is building a triplex on the South Shore and he wants people he knows to rent it to. So he approached us and well come this May we will be moving into a brand new house. It's a 5 and a half. Here is the catch my mom and my aunt will be coming to live with us. My aunt has lived with my grandmother all her life and knows nothing else and can't (does not) to be on her own. I don't mind so much living with them but when do we get to start our lives as a married couple and have kids?? I guess time will tell how the chips will fall. Till then this is my life and there does not seem to be an exit strategy here.
Another good point is that Rick (guy who is building house) well his wife is the director of a daycare. Seeing as I am qualified to be an Early Childhood Educator and they are looking to hire they want me. And I mean ASAP. My resume has been sent in and she is calling the school board (cause job is on the South Shore) and getting them to push my police check along so they can hire me now. I just hope that everything falls into place so all this is possible.
Well that's it for now. Sorry for the length of this.