It's you I was thinking of.
So I'm drunk. Again. I'm drunk a lot lately.
I don't don't don't don't know what to do. When the person you are in love with doesn't want to be with you, what do you do? How do you cope?
I can't do anything. Every time I read word in print, I think of her (she's an English Lit major). Every song I listen to, I think of how she plays guitar but would never play for me. Every guy I see, I think that there's another person I have to be better than if I ever want her back. When I was with her, I felt like I had to be the smartest, the coolest, the best if I wanted to keep her (not that she did anything to make me feel that way; I just felt like I had to be if I was going to be with someone so amazing). Now I feel like I have to be the smartest, the coolest, and the best... because if I'm not, someone better than me will come along and sweep her up and steal her away for forever and ever and ever. And I can't handle that.
I can't handle this. I would take my precious drums and my beloved book collection, stack them up, and set them on fire if only she would sit next to me and watch them burn.
I would do anything, literally anything, to get her back.
But I can't, because nothing I do will bring her back to me. And it's all I want. It's all I'll ever want.
Without her I have nothing. I'll have nothing for forever and ever and ever.
Don't blame me for being such an alcoholic. I'm sorry. But what can I do? What would you do?
<3 Nate
Where are you now?
I don't don't don't don't know what to do. When the person you are in love with doesn't want to be with you, what do you do? How do you cope?
I can't do anything. Every time I read word in print, I think of her (she's an English Lit major). Every song I listen to, I think of how she plays guitar but would never play for me. Every guy I see, I think that there's another person I have to be better than if I ever want her back. When I was with her, I felt like I had to be the smartest, the coolest, the best if I wanted to keep her (not that she did anything to make me feel that way; I just felt like I had to be if I was going to be with someone so amazing). Now I feel like I have to be the smartest, the coolest, and the best... because if I'm not, someone better than me will come along and sweep her up and steal her away for forever and ever and ever. And I can't handle that.
I can't handle this. I would take my precious drums and my beloved book collection, stack them up, and set them on fire if only she would sit next to me and watch them burn.
I would do anything, literally anything, to get her back.
But I can't, because nothing I do will bring her back to me. And it's all I want. It's all I'll ever want.
Without her I have nothing. I'll have nothing for forever and ever and ever.
Don't blame me for being such an alcoholic. I'm sorry. But what can I do? What would you do?
<3 Nate
Where are you now?