Calling out the answers to questions never asked...
I hate life...
... no no no, not really. Really. But seriously, my head is fucked. I can't totally let go of this ex-girlfriend; I just can't understand how she could just stop talking to me, how she could totally ignore me, and yet can smile and say "hi" in the hallway (after 3 months of specifically not talking to me) as if we're fucking friends or something. Fuck her. I hate her. Really.
Anyway, other than that... I'm seeing someone new, and that's all messed up too... I dunno. In good news, I have a thesis topic and a thesis supervisor, and all that. So I can start working on my Master's thesis. I'm also teaching Phil 1400, Intro to Moral Issues, which is both great and a source of great stress. Oh, I still hate Texas. Big surprise, Texas still sucks. It was pouring rain today and this book I just bought got wet and... yeah.
I just need to work really hard and get my master's thesis written. In a year, I'll be out of here forever. I can go someplace better, and do PhD work, and leave everything in Texas behind.
Don't get my wrong, it's not like I'm unhappy. I could just... be happier. Somewhere other than Texas. And to be honest, I'll be happier when I can look at this girl and say "why the fuck would you do that? why did you use me, and lie to me, and fuck me over?" I want answers, god dammit!
Anyway, I know this sounds whiny, but, all in all, life is going well.
<3 Nate
... no no no, not really. Really. But seriously, my head is fucked. I can't totally let go of this ex-girlfriend; I just can't understand how she could just stop talking to me, how she could totally ignore me, and yet can smile and say "hi" in the hallway (after 3 months of specifically not talking to me) as if we're fucking friends or something. Fuck her. I hate her. Really.
Anyway, other than that... I'm seeing someone new, and that's all messed up too... I dunno. In good news, I have a thesis topic and a thesis supervisor, and all that. So I can start working on my Master's thesis. I'm also teaching Phil 1400, Intro to Moral Issues, which is both great and a source of great stress. Oh, I still hate Texas. Big surprise, Texas still sucks. It was pouring rain today and this book I just bought got wet and... yeah.
I just need to work really hard and get my master's thesis written. In a year, I'll be out of here forever. I can go someplace better, and do PhD work, and leave everything in Texas behind.
Don't get my wrong, it's not like I'm unhappy. I could just... be happier. Somewhere other than Texas. And to be honest, I'll be happier when I can look at this girl and say "why the fuck would you do that? why did you use me, and lie to me, and fuck me over?" I want answers, god dammit!
Anyway, I know this sounds whiny, but, all in all, life is going well.
<3 Nate