Fuuuuuuuuuck....
I'm gonna have to look into some sleeping pills or something. I can't keep going through this every night.
It's not the lack of sleep that's getting to me either. It's what I'm thinking about, preventing me from falling alseep...and then combining with the fact I haven't slept. It's some fucked up self-fulling prophecy cycle....thing. Whatever, it sucks and is screwing me up pretty bad mentally.
I was feeling so calm and stuff ealier tonight too.
I'm gonna have to make a phone call or something this weekend. I really need to talk about this with someone who's not directly invovled.
Well, I'm gonna shower and give sleep the "old college try"....and considering how college ended up for me, you may see me update another blog or Facebook or something before the sun rises.
...It would probably help a lot if I could get some creativity going. Another thing to try for on the weekend.