Just Rambling...
I have to let go... Last night stayed up playing solitaire till about 3am. Then tried to go to bed. I just kinda layed there. I thought I was gonna cry but I didn't. I tried to think about stuff but didn't. I just kinda layed there. I lost track of time and before I knew it it was daylight out. Sheena got up and I pretended to be asleep. I was very tired but I didn't sleep. It was odd. I finally go up out of bed. Took a 40 min shower. Got ready pretty slowly. I feel like a zombie. Then I went to counseling. It was good. I felt better afteward. It's definitely time for me to start my own life in this world. Now I am in CLICS trying to read for physics but it's not happening. I feel like crying. But I am in a public place and I don't want to move. I'm numb. I've been taling to Diandra. She's gonna help. I hope. She'll keep me distracted hopefully. I kinda wish she was a closer. She would visit me and take me out to do whatever randomness she does. :) That would be good. I don't think she knows it though. I got to go to class in 10 min and my upper body is super sore.