brand new experience
camp rocked.
what i initially hesitated about was totally wiped out from these few days of fun, play and learning. by far, i can truthfully say that it's the best camp i have ever gone to - true, it was fun and it was how they taught me to reflect upon what i did which really made this camp so fruitful. and from all those sharing sessions i learnt a whole lot; not only from my mistakes but from others' mistakes and feedback from the senior trainers. i finally knew what is meant by beautiful on the inside, and believing and trusting others despite your initial opinion. from this, i respect the trainers' ability to ignore their personal judgement and treat everyone as equals, and their willingness to befriend us, teach us and impart everything they know to us.
almost every single thing i did had something for me to learn; perhaps it was a little overwhelming sometimes but this taught me to have humility as a trainer-to-be as well. WOW! how do i say this...everything i did was fun-packed; from the high elements in saribum to the mud pool, playing in the rain, terrible treks, blisters and leeches, high elements in water...i've always wanted to do all those things and this time, it came to me all at once. not forgetting my terrible fall.. im beginning to think that im really damn clumsy. i fell down AGAIN and i got a huge huge wound on my left knee. aiyerrrrr
and what i treasure a lot this time is that i made friends. not only friends but friends that possibly i could be very close to in future. and there's no doubt that mel and i became closer through this camp. before that, okay we were okay good friends but there was a lack of something which bonds us together... okay terrible but maybe it's the gossiping about others that brought us closer. HAHAHA sleeping together, maybe? anyway i also liked the fact that the innotrek family was damn open with each other; and they could comment on each others' actions with no reserve. from there, perhaps through the angel mortal game and sharing sessions with P-Platers taught me to trust all of them and learn to take the feedback positively and learn more about myself. what i can say is that these sharing sessions were one of a kind. nothing like that have i experienced before.
this camp's like a marathon race. it starts off slow at the beginning, seems demoralising even, but as the runner gradually gains momentum, he feels comfortable running at that speed for a long, long, long time. that's the adrenaline rush. that's the adrenaline rush of knowing that these friends whom you've known for just a few short days, will definitely be with you, always. and towards the end of the race- just like towards the end of the camp, the runner speeds up, and runs like never before towards the victory. the camp ended just that way, i swear.
shocking moments
1) learning that many people in camp smoke ( no offence to smokers)
2) like 5 or 6 leeches on me during the trek to waterfall
3) falling down and getting this terrible wound
4) no toilet paper, hooks, flush or any kind of technology you expect in a toilet
5) seeing a snake pouncing on a chick for real
6) guys gaying together very very physically
7) losing my shoe sole (soul)
8) carrying a slalem over a long long distance
9) being the 1 in 3 girls in a 15 people group
10) people revealing their age, but not looking like it
11) getting my period during camp
12) being scolded by umar and being hit by reality
13) willingly waking up at 7 every single damn day and sleeping at 1 or 2
14) eating a whole lot more rice than usual
15) learning about something which is my secret - in fact the most shocking moment in my life, and truly just being afraid of it all.