repeating the same conversation with different people
woa. i haven't felt this many emotions during a course of three days... ever.
i didn't sleep at all saturday night/sunday, and when i tried to sleep sunday night i woke up not too much later with a nausous stomach which fucked up my sleep completely. today during the day i was so fatigued and found it really hard to get to each place without wanting to just collapse. i slept on the library couch, slept in my 3rd period, slept in niggah nat's 5th period and slept at ger's house. lots of sleeping, and i'm STILL tired! what the fuck! lol
friday was cool. i went to camila's partay. she has such a cool balcony. there were only cool people up in durr, but unfortunately two bad things happened- the thing with matteo and nicole [thank god it wasn't serious] and the thing with ryan [thank god this wasn't too serious either]. saturday was nuts. completely bonkers. i can't even explain. the day, let me state, turned out completely and utterly different than planned. i REALLY enjoyed myself though all the way to the end of the night, it was so eventful and filled with so many cool people. i really wish that shit didn't happen to dahana... but she's obviously a trooper. i also filmed a tad and i felt bad because i kind of rushed it, and ran out when i was done. oh man but let me tell you, saturday was fucking great until later on in the night when i got those stupid phone calls that completely FREAKED me out. im sorry nicole and kristen for freaking out about them, lol. it was great talking about EVERYTHING that was on my mind... [almost everything.. besides the things i forgot to say lol] nonstop with you guys. oh wait back to later on, much time after the phone calls occurred, i felt like complete shit, especially on the way to school cause the tiredness and wierdness hit me. i filmed from about 10 to 4 on sunday. it was funny cause of how we were dressed... we got reactions from like everyone who saw us. i didn't want to delay luly and her taco bell, but i had to, and she dropped me off after we finished.
i hope kristen enjoyed her birthday like mad!!!
when i got home, i found out the phone call that i was freaking out about was not the phone call that i was expecting. at all. this phone call was a hint that my family is falling apart. i feel bad for making ger listen to all my bullshit crying, but thank you so much. and thanks diana for the mini getaway. that was perfect timing, i swear. and thanks to all you fellers i talked to today about anything. just thanks to everybody. I LOVE YOU NIGGAH NAT! and thanks eri for lunch!!
this is not the end of the world. i know this. i already feel better, although i wish certain things weren't happening.
my motto still is everything happens for a reason.
now i want everyone to know that i'm never capable of writing down details of things that happen/or writing them down in order/or even writing things the way i want them to be written. but i guess it doesnt really matter, eh skippy?