rejected..
I hate not feeling like I'm wanted nor loved. I hate my "dad". He hardly deserves the title of "dad". He is a piece of fucking shit. I can't even count on both of my hands how many times he has missed a birthday, softball game, swim meet, christmas & even GRADUATION. he is a waste of space on earth.
I don't understand how a father can ignore their childs phone calls to do drugs or be with his white trash girlfriend. I constantly try to give him teh benefit of the doubt and make an effort to have relationship with him. BUT I'M DONE. Last month he took my sister & jr out to the city for the day..went shopping & to a baseball game. DID I EVEN GET INVITED? no. And Today he shows up at the door to take my sister & jr to dinner..once again I wasn't invited. I locked myself in my room & he didnt even bother to come say hi or ask whats wrong. of course not.
Why am I so silly to think that he would do that? I was crying my eyes out. but HECK. who cares right? I am a young adult..I shouldn't be the one trying to make an effort to contact my "Father", who is an adult. Yes, it's been like this my whole life but everytime it happens..it breaks my heart. I hate feeling so rejected by someone who helped give life to me. I hate him.
I don't understand how a father can ignore their childs phone calls to do drugs or be with his white trash girlfriend. I constantly try to give him teh benefit of the doubt and make an effort to have relationship with him. BUT I'M DONE. Last month he took my sister & jr out to the city for the day..went shopping & to a baseball game. DID I EVEN GET INVITED? no. And Today he shows up at the door to take my sister & jr to dinner..once again I wasn't invited. I locked myself in my room & he didnt even bother to come say hi or ask whats wrong. of course not.
Why am I so silly to think that he would do that? I was crying my eyes out. but HECK. who cares right? I am a young adult..I shouldn't be the one trying to make an effort to contact my "Father", who is an adult. Yes, it's been like this my whole life but everytime it happens..it breaks my heart. I hate feeling so rejected by someone who helped give life to me. I hate him.