Music is reflection of self.
I'm pretty lonley. I don't think I have any friends left. I don't wanna start school because I can't stand all the drama I know I'm gonna go through. Get me the fuck out of here! I'm gonna work my ass off to graduate because I can't stand all the bullshit I feel on an avergae day. No one gets anything I say, I just catch shit and get ripped on for stuff they don't understand. I'm not even saying "How dare you rip on me?!" that's hypocritical. It's just like don't run your mouth when you don't understand something. Does anyone know how lonley I'am or how I'd give my life for one person who loved me and knew what the fuck I'am? You can't say whatever you want and never back anything up but that's all I ever get, just ignorant fucking people. I'm so confused all the time like when I get mad should I just say fuck the consequences and throw a punch or just stay cool and keep my temper? Do I ever open up to anyone even knowing what I know? I get shit for just telling someone my opinion because everyone thinks in their own mindset and no other. Can't you motherfuckers think a different way for five fucking minutes? Anyone who reads this is gonna think "Oh yeah but what's wrong with you Mr. Perfect?" What's not wrong with me?! I can't help but fuck up a relationship whether it be romantic or personal on any level! I can't speak my mind because it's branded into me that I'd better not. I put up a front and that never works out but if I'm real I'm a pussy! No one wants to know anyone else anymore they just want whatever they can get from that person and than they wanna kick them to the curb. Don't come up to me at school and give me shit and don't ask me personal shit because you don't want to know. People think I have such a good life because I'm spoiled or whatever. Just cause I've got shit doesn't make me happy you idiots. I'm so lonley that whenever I could make a friend I overeact to everything and push them all away. I'm a loner who cries cause he's alone. I'm a walking oxymoron at my core and I'm just wrapped in whatever I think fits for that day. You'll never know me because I don't know me. Now go fuck yourself.