In Which In Leui of Cutting, I Will Post My Self-Flagellation.

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I hate myself. I truly hate myself. He called, again, and I missed it. My phone died, and I didn't even think to plug it in when we got back from Friendly. I am so stupid. I should be beaten for my stupidity. How could I? I should be waiting by the phone, especially on the weekends. I can't even do that. I'm a terrible person. I feel so awful, so so awful. I could just go on and on about how much I hate myself right now. I am so stupid.
I miss him.