and i die over and over and over again...
i feel like crying over it, but i dont bc i know that this is ridiculous. i heard that song and i wanted to die over and over and over again.
she made me put up the stupid fucking christmas tree. i am not in a festive mood, nor will i ever be this year. and i want to burn that damn tree down. im sick of looking at it and its only been up a total of ten minutes.
now everything feels so slow and weak, things just wont move any faster, even tho i know that they are spinning and moving too fast for my eye to catch. i want this over. i keep having this strange feeling that after something ( i dont know what) happens, that the pace will pick up again. i keep feeling like im waiting for something. and whatever it is i will probably be waiting for quite some time.
and im thru with these feelings of stupidity and inferiority. these things that make me so _________.
i just want this week to be over.