Do not pay attention to the ramblings below
So here I am. Sitting at Jenni's Computer becasue mine is super fucked and at Best Buy getting fixed by geeks I do not have to sleep with. (I'm in a bitter mood tonight) I feel completely useless. I cannot study for O-chem anymore, I didn't really study for physics. The only class I feel like I've done anything for all year is Bio stats and my grade DOES NOT refelct it. I'm not worried about it becasue Dr. Garton wouldn't give anyone a bad grade, but still.
I pretty much feel like I wouldn't recognize myself right now if I met my freshman year self again right now. And that's a good thing in several ways but it also sucks major in a few ways too. If at any point in the year 2002 you would have told me that I would be ignoring my take home final and my ACS final to watch/read harry potter and whine on live journal I would have driven you to millegeville. I cannot help but wonder if something didn't knock loose in the accident. Granted recently there have been other hints that's something's awry. I'm blaming it on Stress right now though. I guess the real thing I'm saying is that I kinda feel lost. The things I used to want I don't anymore. I'm not where I ttought I would be. I feel like I've been holding the map the wrong way the whole time and making the exact opposite turn at every fork. And now I'm too far along to simply turn around. I have to make a new plan and I'm too tired right now to do it.
This headache needs to go away. I've been sick and hurty for the past three days. I can't even sleep it off. It feels like a constant hangover, but I'm not drinking anything so I'm not even getting the fun part first? I'm thinking that if I make it all the way to thursday I'll be set.
ok Thursday is my last day so... we are going to pappasito's for margaritias and fajitis. This will be immeadeatly followed by champange and pretty boy movies which it seems may be followed by Sweetwater if someone will come with me which will be followed by Thursday night Drinking club at Cafe intermezzo with Ansley people. Call me at any point to join in. all are invited. come and make sure I go home alone...
I pretty much feel like I wouldn't recognize myself right now if I met my freshman year self again right now. And that's a good thing in several ways but it also sucks major in a few ways too. If at any point in the year 2002 you would have told me that I would be ignoring my take home final and my ACS final to watch/read harry potter and whine on live journal I would have driven you to millegeville. I cannot help but wonder if something didn't knock loose in the accident. Granted recently there have been other hints that's something's awry. I'm blaming it on Stress right now though. I guess the real thing I'm saying is that I kinda feel lost. The things I used to want I don't anymore. I'm not where I ttought I would be. I feel like I've been holding the map the wrong way the whole time and making the exact opposite turn at every fork. And now I'm too far along to simply turn around. I have to make a new plan and I'm too tired right now to do it.
This headache needs to go away. I've been sick and hurty for the past three days. I can't even sleep it off. It feels like a constant hangover, but I'm not drinking anything so I'm not even getting the fun part first? I'm thinking that if I make it all the way to thursday I'll be set.
ok Thursday is my last day so... we are going to pappasito's for margaritias and fajitis. This will be immeadeatly followed by champange and pretty boy movies which it seems may be followed by Sweetwater if someone will come with me which will be followed by Thursday night Drinking club at Cafe intermezzo with Ansley people. Call me at any point to join in. all are invited. come and make sure I go home alone...