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Today I found out why I'm so foggy and farty in my brain. Mercury in Retrograde. affects communication. explains why my inner dialogue is as retarded and forgetful as my attempts to speak and write. I was beginning to wonder if I had developed a brain tumor. it will be ending very soon. THANK GODDESS. not that I didn't learn something from worrying if my mind was lost forever... I've learned to take my time more often, enjoy doing what I'm doing and make it worth remembering instead of worrying about the next thing, or trying to do too many things at once. I was also forced to forfeit my volcanic temper. it's hard to get angry with people who can't keep your food order straight, lock you out of the house by accident, or simply appear to not be listening when you are cursed with the same forgetfulness and confusion and can do NOTHING about it. it was a hard learned lesson, but I think I suffered so much during this retrograde because I was so greatly in need. it's time to stop being so cerebral and just feel for a while. it's amazing how much you learn when you're not busy thinking. it also seemed to clear the passages for lines of thought that weren't all cluttery with daily useless to do lists and crap... INSPIRATION actually crept back into my life, after a hiatus. I was happy, don't get me wrong, but sometimes contendedness is stagnant and we get too comfortable, need the friction to get a spark. Spiritually I feel refreshed and excited, I've stopped being mad at myself for being stupid (and at other people!), and my hair has taken on a life of its own... I'm this puckish goat fairy thing and I think flowers are going to start budding out from my head. I'm also on cold medicine. I threatened to make a plaster cast of eric's adorable bum and use the top of the crack as a flower vase. he would not appreciate that.