May 23, 2005 20:56
we leave for cabin on friday right after 3rd period. anyone wanna come with? no of course not. anyyywayyy. . .listening to Girl witha pearl, it's pretty sweet. people disappoint me so much, it's a weird cycle I do better when I don't depend on people but it's so hard when I want friends so bad. I just want people to love me but they just think i'm sick or something. I feel like there's been this huge blanket thrown down on my body and it's so hard to get off, my pseudo happy feeling has flown away
but of course, if you never talk about it, it won't exist. This is what I do.