pathetic and its myth =.= wth
i'm pathetic man =.=
i know very well that i'm pathetic...still @_@
Sometimes i would just surfing e Internet...wandering around pple's blogs....just to realize "wahhh, they have lots of friends...and they are important to lots of pple....they're really great..." and things like that
and then i would think of myself
man, i dont have anything like that rite
am i too much of an egoistic?...or am i just not sociable enough?
or am i just too much detached from society @_@
wth i even cant comprehend it
dunno it's that my lack of social skills... or just that my lack of will to be sociable @_@
maybe both =.=
and then i would get all jealous... and pathetic
and then i would just get frustrated and leave everything the way it be @_@
man, it's a damn frustrating repetitive cycle... =.=
haiz...i did think that if u dont reach out or try to do sth to change, then what can you really expect to change @_@
still... it seems that i really havent done anything... or just do it in a half-hearted manner @_@
without any lingers of confidence
thus...that's the way how it comes out @_@
my gosh, i know what myself lacks...and i just dont do anything to change...though i really wanna change @_@
am i self-conflicted again? =.=
from time to time i would think that it's just good to be alone this way... a realm that no one can ever penetrate ...
and then from time to time i would think that maybe i was too lonely and desperate in my own self-made world
yare yare i guess i'm just no good to lead a bachelor life haha
i need someone to pamper, to guide me, to brighten my days...
it always turns out that eventually, i'm no good being left alone...yet i dont try seeking anything to break this solitude @_@
maybe i've always been trying to scream out for help...but there are just too many screams... and mine was just too soft to be realized...
i know very well that i'm pathetic...still @_@
Sometimes i would just surfing e Internet...wandering around pple's blogs....just to realize "wahhh, they have lots of friends...and they are important to lots of pple....they're really great..." and things like that
and then i would think of myself
man, i dont have anything like that rite
am i too much of an egoistic?...or am i just not sociable enough?
or am i just too much detached from society @_@
wth i even cant comprehend it
dunno it's that my lack of social skills... or just that my lack of will to be sociable @_@
maybe both =.=
and then i would get all jealous... and pathetic
and then i would just get frustrated and leave everything the way it be @_@
man, it's a damn frustrating repetitive cycle... =.=
haiz...i did think that if u dont reach out or try to do sth to change, then what can you really expect to change @_@
still... it seems that i really havent done anything... or just do it in a half-hearted manner @_@
without any lingers of confidence
thus...that's the way how it comes out @_@
my gosh, i know what myself lacks...and i just dont do anything to change...though i really wanna change @_@
am i self-conflicted again? =.=
from time to time i would think that it's just good to be alone this way... a realm that no one can ever penetrate ...
and then from time to time i would think that maybe i was too lonely and desperate in my own self-made world
yare yare i guess i'm just no good to lead a bachelor life haha
i need someone to pamper, to guide me, to brighten my days...
it always turns out that eventually, i'm no good being left alone...yet i dont try seeking anything to break this solitude @_@
maybe i've always been trying to scream out for help...but there are just too many screams... and mine was just too soft to be realized...