life
what is life? life is an oxymoron, a paradigm, a juxtaposition...everyone wants to take control but no one is...i dont know if it is something born inside of us or we learn it from the people who raise us but it is the same in every person...people feel the need to give you counsel and tell you how to make a decision but cringe at making any of their own...i think that it is because people need to feel validated and making decisions for other people is easier because they dont have to live with the consequences....why is it that if you want something no one thinks twice about it but if you make any action towards it you are being selfish? does the weight always have to fall on my shoulders? do i always have to be the rock? the lantern in the tower? when do i get to rest and have someone take care of me? or is that not in the cards at all...the world wants to lean on us but the second we need to lean on them we are selfish...i always that people were supposed to be there for each other when you need them but i have learned that people just think of themselves and think about how selfish the rest of humanity is for thinking the same thing...people genuinely want to care but it is beyond their grasp...