HURRY BACK HOME 03
i still have to translate the last one!! x3x3x3x3......(so busy u.u)
Title: Hurry back home
Author: namelesshachi (Park Hachimi)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: drama, angst
Length: 4 chapters
Pairing: YooSu (slight HoSu) mentions of JaeMin
Disclaimer: they're not mine! i'm not that lucky
A/N: my first Yoosu! and first in english!!...
Summary: Yoochun and Junsu have been fighting about Yoochun's work. Suddenly Junsu starts ignoring Yoochun. (not good in summaries...sorry =S)
the past: CH 01|CH 02
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My head feels heavy, i feel so weak, I have no idea how long it’s been, if I’ve eaten anything, I just remember sleeping a lot, I haven’t spoke to anyone, im locked away in my pain. I open the closet, I see his clothes on the left of it, the other half is empty. I look in the drawers, there’s nothing in them. My shoes are gone. I go in the living room, I look for my cds and they’re all gone, even my books. There’s nothing around the house that’s mine! Did Junsu actually did this?! He got rid of everything!!. I go down the basement fast, is just the desk in there, not my papers, my laptop is gone, is just the piano by the corner covered by a blanket. This is not fair! It shouldn’t be like this! Why is he doing this. I throw the blanket in the floor. Is this how he wants to finish things?! He really wants me out of his life…
When i step back in the living room, i see some portraits, Junsu’s photos, us smiling together, i throw them down. I go in the room and get his clothes out of the closet, I throw his shoes out the window, when I go by the window a lamp down. I take it and open a drawer to put that inside.
I see my laptop’s cable inside the drawer and drop the lamp, I search inside, there’s a folder in the bottom, and a notebook, I used to write music in it, I see some pages with my writing, some Junsu’s. and in the end, one I can remember very clearly inside a yellow envelope. I wrote that song for Junsu, his song, his birthday present. I played a little the “I forgot your present” part, and when he came back home that night, the music was coming down the basement, he came down running, he hugged me tight, “you’re so mean!! I tought you forgot!!”. He kissed me and I asked me to play the song like three times in a row.
I took the envelope and leave on the bed, I remember something I saw in the drawer, down the bottom, a small bottle. I hold it in my hands, took the envelope and go to the basement. I sit by the piano, the bottle and the envelope on top of it. My heart aches. Why!? And how long?! I can’t take my eyes of the bottle! And the pills inside it. Fluoxetine i can read in the label. I go up to look for a dictionary, i don’t like this. The book falls in the floor, “major depression” “panic disorder”. This can’t be! Have I done so much damage to him?! How long has this been going on?! How i didn’t know a thing!.
Again by the piano, crying, my chest aches, my legs! My breathing is fast. Damn! How i didn’t see this!?! My mind gets filled with memories, his smiling face, our moments together, the nights, the flavor of his lips, his voice. All those times we fought in the morning before I leave for work.
I try to remember that morning, the last fight we had cause i came home late again!. We yelled at each other, he cried. “You just don’t understand Yoochun! All i want is be with you! I don’t give a damn abot the house, the Money! Nothing!” I left home all angry. My boss yelled at me, i had forgot the Project at home, my car broked and had to take the subway. I couldn’t stop thinking about him, I just wanted to get out and run to his arms again.
I shake my head, throwing away stupid toughts. Still, I’ve made my choice, im gonna make this work! I’m giving it all! I’m gonna make it right!.
That’s when I heard the front door, and I play, I play his song, I close my eyes and let myself go with the music, pouring all my feelings in it.
The basement door opens, I see Junsu, tears in his eyes, don’t stop playing, I want him to understand with it all I feel for him.
-STOP IT! Can’t you see you’re hurting me?!- My hands suddenly froze and I hear the door closing.
This is too much! Im tired I’ve cried too much. I think I slept a few hours. I have to make this right! I go to the room, to find it dark, all I see is the light coming down the bathroom door, I stand in front of it, I look down and see water coming down the door. -Yoochun!?-
I can finally hear my name from his lips, i don’t dear myself to turn around and face him. My hands close in fists, searching for value inside of me. -Yoochunnie!- His arms circle my waist and his head lays in my back, I feel him trembling. -You came home early- I finally turn to see him, I lift his chin softly with my fingers, he looks tired, small tears are rolling on his cheeks. -I missed you!- He hugs me tightly, after a few seconds I hug him back. He lets go a little and I see his face. -Chunnie! I had a stupid dream! You went out and never came back for me!- I give him a confused smile. -I’d never do that!-
-We had a fight! And I never saw you again!-
I stroke his hair kindly and kiss his forehead sofly. -No Junsu! I’m never going to leave you! I know I hurt you and everyong thinks we are better apart! But I can’t let anybody take you away from me- His arms go to my neck and smile, damn ! I missed that smile. -What are you talking about!?-
He leans and close the distance between us, I missed his flavor, his hands in my hair, my hands travel down his back. We break apart and he looks serious. -Chunnie… im so sorry I yelled at you in the morning! I understand you want the best for the both of us!, but I’m worried about you! You work too much!- He strokes my hair and I lose myself in his eyes. -But is good you came early today! We can spend the day together!- He seems to check me out and takes my shirt. -The sleeves are dirty, looks like oil…the car broke again!?-
-Yeah…I had to take the subway…-
Something’s odd, that fight was days ago, did he said this morning?!, even I don’t know what day is today! -It’s okay!- His voice brings me back from my toughts, his hands travel my arms slowly. -Let’s get rid of that shirt, is dirty and wet! You’ll get sick!- He unfasten the buttons of my shirt and removes it.
I sit on the bed, Junsu behind me, his hands on my shoulders. -You look tired- I take his hands and get closer to him. -Junsu…I…- I stroke his face with my fingertips, I lean close to him and kiss him, softly, deeply, I straddle him down the bed, never breaking the kiss, I touch his neck, his chest. His hands travel on my naked back. It’s been so long and I need to feel him, my hands touch the end of his shirt and lift it slowly, he raises his arm and discard it. I need him to know I’m still his.
We explore each other like the first time, slowly and full of love, i kiss his body, his arms, his chest, his legs, his belly, repeating “i love you’s” our breathings are one, i take him slowly and kiss him, our hearts are the same. His nails dig in my back I lay my head on his shoulders, his lips claim mine, his heat surrounds me, his flavor, his smile, and his soft kisses are all I see. We are one again.
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>>>Go to Chapter 4 (final)
Title: Hurry back home
Author: namelesshachi (Park Hachimi)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: drama, angst
Length: 4 chapters
Pairing: YooSu (slight HoSu) mentions of JaeMin
Disclaimer: they're not mine! i'm not that lucky
A/N: my first Yoosu! and first in english!!...
Summary: Yoochun and Junsu have been fighting about Yoochun's work. Suddenly Junsu starts ignoring Yoochun. (not good in summaries...sorry =S)
the past: CH 01|CH 02
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My head feels heavy, i feel so weak, I have no idea how long it’s been, if I’ve eaten anything, I just remember sleeping a lot, I haven’t spoke to anyone, im locked away in my pain. I open the closet, I see his clothes on the left of it, the other half is empty. I look in the drawers, there’s nothing in them. My shoes are gone. I go in the living room, I look for my cds and they’re all gone, even my books. There’s nothing around the house that’s mine! Did Junsu actually did this?! He got rid of everything!!. I go down the basement fast, is just the desk in there, not my papers, my laptop is gone, is just the piano by the corner covered by a blanket. This is not fair! It shouldn’t be like this! Why is he doing this. I throw the blanket in the floor. Is this how he wants to finish things?! He really wants me out of his life…
When i step back in the living room, i see some portraits, Junsu’s photos, us smiling together, i throw them down. I go in the room and get his clothes out of the closet, I throw his shoes out the window, when I go by the window a lamp down. I take it and open a drawer to put that inside.
I see my laptop’s cable inside the drawer and drop the lamp, I search inside, there’s a folder in the bottom, and a notebook, I used to write music in it, I see some pages with my writing, some Junsu’s. and in the end, one I can remember very clearly inside a yellow envelope. I wrote that song for Junsu, his song, his birthday present. I played a little the “I forgot your present” part, and when he came back home that night, the music was coming down the basement, he came down running, he hugged me tight, “you’re so mean!! I tought you forgot!!”. He kissed me and I asked me to play the song like three times in a row.
I took the envelope and leave on the bed, I remember something I saw in the drawer, down the bottom, a small bottle. I hold it in my hands, took the envelope and go to the basement. I sit by the piano, the bottle and the envelope on top of it. My heart aches. Why!? And how long?! I can’t take my eyes of the bottle! And the pills inside it. Fluoxetine i can read in the label. I go up to look for a dictionary, i don’t like this. The book falls in the floor, “major depression” “panic disorder”. This can’t be! Have I done so much damage to him?! How long has this been going on?! How i didn’t know a thing!.
Again by the piano, crying, my chest aches, my legs! My breathing is fast. Damn! How i didn’t see this!?! My mind gets filled with memories, his smiling face, our moments together, the nights, the flavor of his lips, his voice. All those times we fought in the morning before I leave for work.
I try to remember that morning, the last fight we had cause i came home late again!. We yelled at each other, he cried. “You just don’t understand Yoochun! All i want is be with you! I don’t give a damn abot the house, the Money! Nothing!” I left home all angry. My boss yelled at me, i had forgot the Project at home, my car broked and had to take the subway. I couldn’t stop thinking about him, I just wanted to get out and run to his arms again.
I shake my head, throwing away stupid toughts. Still, I’ve made my choice, im gonna make this work! I’m giving it all! I’m gonna make it right!.
That’s when I heard the front door, and I play, I play his song, I close my eyes and let myself go with the music, pouring all my feelings in it.
The basement door opens, I see Junsu, tears in his eyes, don’t stop playing, I want him to understand with it all I feel for him.
-STOP IT! Can’t you see you’re hurting me?!- My hands suddenly froze and I hear the door closing.
This is too much! Im tired I’ve cried too much. I think I slept a few hours. I have to make this right! I go to the room, to find it dark, all I see is the light coming down the bathroom door, I stand in front of it, I look down and see water coming down the door. -Yoochun!?-
I can finally hear my name from his lips, i don’t dear myself to turn around and face him. My hands close in fists, searching for value inside of me. -Yoochunnie!- His arms circle my waist and his head lays in my back, I feel him trembling. -You came home early- I finally turn to see him, I lift his chin softly with my fingers, he looks tired, small tears are rolling on his cheeks. -I missed you!- He hugs me tightly, after a few seconds I hug him back. He lets go a little and I see his face. -Chunnie! I had a stupid dream! You went out and never came back for me!- I give him a confused smile. -I’d never do that!-
-We had a fight! And I never saw you again!-
I stroke his hair kindly and kiss his forehead sofly. -No Junsu! I’m never going to leave you! I know I hurt you and everyong thinks we are better apart! But I can’t let anybody take you away from me- His arms go to my neck and smile, damn ! I missed that smile. -What are you talking about!?-
He leans and close the distance between us, I missed his flavor, his hands in my hair, my hands travel down his back. We break apart and he looks serious. -Chunnie… im so sorry I yelled at you in the morning! I understand you want the best for the both of us!, but I’m worried about you! You work too much!- He strokes my hair and I lose myself in his eyes. -But is good you came early today! We can spend the day together!- He seems to check me out and takes my shirt. -The sleeves are dirty, looks like oil…the car broke again!?-
-Yeah…I had to take the subway…-
Something’s odd, that fight was days ago, did he said this morning?!, even I don’t know what day is today! -It’s okay!- His voice brings me back from my toughts, his hands travel my arms slowly. -Let’s get rid of that shirt, is dirty and wet! You’ll get sick!- He unfasten the buttons of my shirt and removes it.
I sit on the bed, Junsu behind me, his hands on my shoulders. -You look tired- I take his hands and get closer to him. -Junsu…I…- I stroke his face with my fingertips, I lean close to him and kiss him, softly, deeply, I straddle him down the bed, never breaking the kiss, I touch his neck, his chest. His hands travel on my naked back. It’s been so long and I need to feel him, my hands touch the end of his shirt and lift it slowly, he raises his arm and discard it. I need him to know I’m still his.
We explore each other like the first time, slowly and full of love, i kiss his body, his arms, his chest, his legs, his belly, repeating “i love you’s” our breathings are one, i take him slowly and kiss him, our hearts are the same. His nails dig in my back I lay my head on his shoulders, his lips claim mine, his heat surrounds me, his flavor, his smile, and his soft kisses are all I see. We are one again.
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>>>Go to Chapter 4 (final)