feelings...or somethin like that
wow i haven't updated in a while...you know what? I usually say that everytime i update...oh well lol.
So i sat, staring off into nothing with tears building up in my eyes. Even as she waved her hand in front of my face i didn't budge. Trying her hardest to get close to me, i tightend the muscles in my hand, my arm. "Jordan i'm sorry" she said softly as she looked up at me. After a moment i softend and returned a look in her eyes after wiping the tears away "Its not you..."
*Earlier in the day*
I'm lost...completely torn down and worn out. After years of trying i think i'm actually going to give up. To keep it short and simple, i realized that no matter what he does to you...you're not going to ever give him up. So i'm holding up my white flag i suppose, and because i love you so much...and i want you and him to be happy together, at his request, and at hopes of making you two happy with each other i might not be talking to you anymore.
Yeah, so i'm finally giving up on the girl of my dreams as much as everyone doesn't want me to. But after 4 years....what point is there in fighting a lost cause? its about the same as fighting for peace...eventually you come to grips that accomplishing peace will never happen...the same as me being with kerri. I'm off to go wallow in despair...
So i sat, staring off into nothing with tears building up in my eyes. Even as she waved her hand in front of my face i didn't budge. Trying her hardest to get close to me, i tightend the muscles in my hand, my arm. "Jordan i'm sorry" she said softly as she looked up at me. After a moment i softend and returned a look in her eyes after wiping the tears away "Its not you..."
*Earlier in the day*
I'm lost...completely torn down and worn out. After years of trying i think i'm actually going to give up. To keep it short and simple, i realized that no matter what he does to you...you're not going to ever give him up. So i'm holding up my white flag i suppose, and because i love you so much...and i want you and him to be happy together, at his request, and at hopes of making you two happy with each other i might not be talking to you anymore.
Yeah, so i'm finally giving up on the girl of my dreams as much as everyone doesn't want me to. But after 4 years....what point is there in fighting a lost cause? its about the same as fighting for peace...eventually you come to grips that accomplishing peace will never happen...the same as me being with kerri. I'm off to go wallow in despair...