finally an actual update...kinda sad...just a lil disclaimer to let u know before u read
"i just want to die...i want you to kill me"...
Could you imagine hearing these words from someone you hold so close to your own heart? Could you handle hearing this over and over from someone you would do anything for? Well it was a reality for me...and for me being able to say anything to any problem that anyone has ever brought me, all i could to was stand dumbfounded as i held her and tried to think of something to say to bring her some comfort. How could i blame her? For 3 years she's gone through nothing through pain sand suffering, even from me as much as i hate to admit it. But still...holding her while she's crying and asking for death is something i wasn't prepared for...hell i'd be shocked if anywone could prepare for that...i can't bear the pain...the shock of this event happening before my very eyes. I love her to death, and would do anything to make her happy if its possible at all now. Maybe...just maybe i could think of something. Until then i want her to know i love her very much and to stay strong, just as you have been for 3 years now. just hold out a little while longer..
Could you imagine hearing these words from someone you hold so close to your own heart? Could you handle hearing this over and over from someone you would do anything for? Well it was a reality for me...and for me being able to say anything to any problem that anyone has ever brought me, all i could to was stand dumbfounded as i held her and tried to think of something to say to bring her some comfort. How could i blame her? For 3 years she's gone through nothing through pain sand suffering, even from me as much as i hate to admit it. But still...holding her while she's crying and asking for death is something i wasn't prepared for...hell i'd be shocked if anywone could prepare for that...i can't bear the pain...the shock of this event happening before my very eyes. I love her to death, and would do anything to make her happy if its possible at all now. Maybe...just maybe i could think of something. Until then i want her to know i love her very much and to stay strong, just as you have been for 3 years now. just hold out a little while longer..