You ever feel like nothing you do ever has or will matter? Like you are trying and trying but at your very best all you ever get to be is mediocre
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i feel like i'm in the same boat. i've had several opportunities over the years to get out of this area and i passed on em all. i think a lot of it had to do with being afraid. afraid of genuinely leaving everything behind. everyone. afraid of change. i can tell myself i stayed to help take care of Gary or to help Granny but in the end it had more to do with me and my own fears. every now and then i wonder, what if i had moved to Arkansas. what if i had moved to South Carolina?
you've been doing art and theater (from my perspective at least) off and on since we met. if it still makes you happy, keep doing it. if you get small roles locally, or you direct a play for kids... thats still great IMO. apply for Texas. if you don't get it at least you tried. if you get it... well, cross that bridge when you get there. you took a gamble, moved once and it failed. that doesn't mean every single time you take a chance like that you will fail. if you don't even try... that is the real failure.
i hope this was somewhat helpful and/or encouraging.
Yeah it's helpful and appreciated. I feel like you're right and I am really starting to think the way I didn't want to do this is the way to go. Maybe I grew up into a spoiled brat of an adult, I dunno..I just hate not getting to do this my way lol. The Texas thing is a long shot. Big crazy long shot. I was just ranting out of my head cause I was feeling down. I'm still looking into it though. Sometimes I think I get my best breakthroughs when I rant it out lol. Thank you for the comment. Seriously. You are not obligated to be even remotely nice to me, but your comment was constructive and definitely encouraging.
I'm ok now. Rants help haha. Friends help. Getting out of the house helps. I'll send you a message in a day or two.
you've been doing art and theater (from my perspective at least) off and on since we met. if it still makes you happy, keep doing it. if you get small roles locally, or you direct a play for kids... thats still great IMO. apply for Texas. if you don't get it at least you tried. if you get it... well, cross that bridge when you get there. you took a gamble, moved once and it failed. that doesn't mean every single time you take a chance like that you will fail. if you don't even try... that is the real failure.
i hope this was somewhat helpful and/or encouraging.
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The Texas thing is a long shot. Big crazy long shot. I was just ranting out of my head cause I was feeling down. I'm still looking into it though. Sometimes I think I get my best breakthroughs when I rant it out lol.
Thank you for the comment. Seriously. You are not obligated to be even remotely nice to me, but your comment was constructive and definitely encouraging.
I'm ok now. Rants help haha. Friends help. Getting out of the house helps. I'll send you a message in a day or two.
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