I am mental ...yep. I accept this, and it is okay.
I'm going to miss my appointment with mental health today. Heather has school and work because her boss is on preggo leave. Which ..is really a shame because the other night something occured to me that I really out to tell a mental health professional.
Sometimes other people just don't feel real. This is kinda normal for me. It hadn't occurred to me that it was all that weird, until I was thinking of a comment I made to a friend one day years ago that confused him. So I asked Paul if I should tell the mental health people that people just don't feel real sometimes. To which he then gave me a funny look and I had to try to put it into words he could get. The fact that he didn't get what I was saying immediately kinda clued me that he hadn't had the experience, thus I am the odd ball. It's like ....standing in the middle of a projection screen that's wrapped all around you in a circle. And a soap opera is being projected on the screen surrounding you. There is all this action going on around you but it's inconsequential because none of it is really real.
It's not like this all the time. Sometimes people are so real it hurts. Like even tv shows and movies end up eliciting strong emotional responses and I have to stop watching.
Other times it's like it doesn't even register one way or the other in my mind and I feel like that's more normal. Normal people don't have to think of other people being real or not, they just take it for granted that they are. While me ...sometimes I'll be sitting in traffic and suddenly I will just be awed by the thought that all those cars are full of all these people who have all these individual lives. It was something like that that I said to that friend that got me the funny look.
Sometimes other people just don't feel real. This is kinda normal for me. It hadn't occurred to me that it was all that weird, until I was thinking of a comment I made to a friend one day years ago that confused him. So I asked Paul if I should tell the mental health people that people just don't feel real sometimes. To which he then gave me a funny look and I had to try to put it into words he could get. The fact that he didn't get what I was saying immediately kinda clued me that he hadn't had the experience, thus I am the odd ball. It's like ....standing in the middle of a projection screen that's wrapped all around you in a circle. And a soap opera is being projected on the screen surrounding you. There is all this action going on around you but it's inconsequential because none of it is really real.
It's not like this all the time. Sometimes people are so real it hurts. Like even tv shows and movies end up eliciting strong emotional responses and I have to stop watching.
Other times it's like it doesn't even register one way or the other in my mind and I feel like that's more normal. Normal people don't have to think of other people being real or not, they just take it for granted that they are. While me ...sometimes I'll be sitting in traffic and suddenly I will just be awed by the thought that all those cars are full of all these people who have all these individual lives. It was something like that that I said to that friend that got me the funny look.