oh the agony of viruses
man, im sick as a dog. i feel like im in highschool again. i haven't had a shitty cold like this since then. i really thought i was going to have strep throat besides the fact that i didn't have a fever. my throat felt like it was closing up all the time. now i have the sniffles and i really don't want to go to school tomorrow and annoy everyone with my snuffing and sniffling runny nose. i can't miss anymore school until the semester is over. i don't want to fall behind because i'd been doing pretty good.
went out with mom today and got some clothes at the mall. not a lot cos i wasn't in the mood to be trying a ton of shit on. i just got some halter top for the summer and some pair of dress slacks like i always wear to work. i cannot wait until me and bruno go on vacation. i just need a break from working and school so bad. i feel like i'm going to go mentally insane without something giving soon. i have basically one day off when i go all the way up to my mom's and see nik. then the rest of the week, i'm floating thru school and work, tired as a dog....not really having enough time to do the work i'm assigned. then people keep asking me when we're gonna hang out and i really don't even have the time. its like i want to but i have only one day off every fuckin week and i feel like i have to somehow fit in time for these folks. haha, that sounds like i have a million friends but thats far from it, i was more referring to acquaintances i don't know that well and my cousin. its like i honestly wouldn't mind hanging out with these people but nik and bruno are my priorities at this point to be honest. nearest and dearest kiddies. this is part of the reason why i have no social life even when i get the chance to build one...i'm always some place i don't wanna be.
B you are so right....once you realize you're an adult and have grown up, life starts to get hectic. thats part of the reason why i always talk about how much i love new orleans....
shuuuure it was a shitty southern state, there wasn't a lot to do, it was hot as all fuck and there were hurricanes, but i was a KID, and i had no responsiblities besides putting on my flip flops and shorts and having a damn good time till sundown every night of the summer. i'd run around like a nut till i was the color of a true african princess. haha. but seriously....i really miss being carefree like that....and that's something i will never experience again as long as i live...there's no way to get that period of my life back unless i just won a billion dollars.
i just feel so hopeless sometimes ....like what am i really going to school for. i can't think of anything that i want to do thats going to really bring me true happiness. its kinda nerveracking but i just gotta keep hoping that something good comes from all this and that i eventually finish.
now back to how shallow i really am. i want 2 dooney and bourke bags i saw at the mall. isn't it cool how i can go from being reflective to shallow materialistic biatch in one journal entry. i love it.
i seriously need to start updating this..i have so much to gab about but i'm always so busy i forget to write. please summer time hurry up. ahh.
went out with mom today and got some clothes at the mall. not a lot cos i wasn't in the mood to be trying a ton of shit on. i just got some halter top for the summer and some pair of dress slacks like i always wear to work. i cannot wait until me and bruno go on vacation. i just need a break from working and school so bad. i feel like i'm going to go mentally insane without something giving soon. i have basically one day off when i go all the way up to my mom's and see nik. then the rest of the week, i'm floating thru school and work, tired as a dog....not really having enough time to do the work i'm assigned. then people keep asking me when we're gonna hang out and i really don't even have the time. its like i want to but i have only one day off every fuckin week and i feel like i have to somehow fit in time for these folks. haha, that sounds like i have a million friends but thats far from it, i was more referring to acquaintances i don't know that well and my cousin. its like i honestly wouldn't mind hanging out with these people but nik and bruno are my priorities at this point to be honest. nearest and dearest kiddies. this is part of the reason why i have no social life even when i get the chance to build one...i'm always some place i don't wanna be.
B you are so right....once you realize you're an adult and have grown up, life starts to get hectic. thats part of the reason why i always talk about how much i love new orleans....
shuuuure it was a shitty southern state, there wasn't a lot to do, it was hot as all fuck and there were hurricanes, but i was a KID, and i had no responsiblities besides putting on my flip flops and shorts and having a damn good time till sundown every night of the summer. i'd run around like a nut till i was the color of a true african princess. haha. but seriously....i really miss being carefree like that....and that's something i will never experience again as long as i live...there's no way to get that period of my life back unless i just won a billion dollars.
i just feel so hopeless sometimes ....like what am i really going to school for. i can't think of anything that i want to do thats going to really bring me true happiness. its kinda nerveracking but i just gotta keep hoping that something good comes from all this and that i eventually finish.
now back to how shallow i really am. i want 2 dooney and bourke bags i saw at the mall. isn't it cool how i can go from being reflective to shallow materialistic biatch in one journal entry. i love it.
i seriously need to start updating this..i have so much to gab about but i'm always so busy i forget to write. please summer time hurry up. ahh.