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[nakotaco]

http://rp-anon-meme.livejournal.com/3744.html?thread=8389792#t8389792

I'm so angry that I don't even know how to react anymore. I mean, I really don't. Is it just totally impossible to let this go? Seriously?Watch as, yet again, no-one defends me, and no-one

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[kriscynical]

If you want to get away from it then why are you looking at things like that?

I mean, it looks to me like they want to get a reaction out of you, otherwise they'd just move on. By acknowledging it, it shows that it bothers you, which is exactly what they want to get from you.

At least that's the way it looks to a complete outsider from the situation.

[nakotaco]

If ignoring them would make them stop, they'd have stopped five months ago.

[nakotaco]

Also: ignorance is not bliss.

[kriscynical]

It is bliss if it's something that's ridiculous, or at least in my experience. Again, I know absolutely nothing about the situation other than it's an RP group you were heavily participating in and they've been targeting you for wank. The last time people turned on me like that I gave them the proverbial finger and never looked back. If the only way they can get their kicks is by picking on somebody who isn't even around anymore, they have no lives and they're the ones who look rather pathetic.

And I hate to say it, but you've mentioned these RPing drama happenings several times over the last few months in posts that aren't all flocked (if I remember right), so you're not completely ignoring them. Perhaps they know this, so that's why they're continuing.

I mean, I can't imagine why they'd be continuing otherwise. Trolls usually get bored pretty quick. And I'm not trying to piss you off or anything; I don't know you that well but I do wish they'd leave you alone.

[nakotaco]

It just pisses me off so fucking bad that I can't react, I can't argue, I can't defend myself, shit, I can't be reasonable, I can't do anything without all these people who literally have no idea who I am say all this bullshit about me. And if I don't do anything? Well, that's where the meme came from where everyone bitched about how I "don't listen" and "don't take concrit" and a bunch of other bullshit. There is no way I can win. No matter what I do, or don't do, they find some way to put me at fault for it.

[kriscynical]

I don't understand this. If you're not a participant over there, why should you be expected to react or respond? Why do you expect yourself to respond? Why do you think you need to? They're talking about someone who supposedly isn't there anymore. If they're such big pricks, why do you care if they say you can't take concrit? They sound like idiots

[nakotaco]

I don't know, maybe my self-esteem just sucks so hard that I'm looking to the internet to fix it? I'm certainly not getting it out of reality.

[kriscynical]

I had that mindset about getting self esteem from reality until I was a junior in high school; that's when I said fuck it and decided to do whatever the hell I wanted without caring what anyone else thought. It worked, and it turns out that people liked me a hell of a lot better once I started being myself than when I was trying to find worth by changing myself

[nakotaco]

As far as the theatre department thing goes - that's basically what I've been trying to do for two and a half years. Unfortunately, my faith in myself has never been good enough that I've ever been able to go "well, if I just keep trying, someday it'll get better!"

[kriscynical]

I've been trying to get into shows for almost six years now and have been competing with my artwork in a judged setting for over eight years. You have to keep trying or what's the alternative? Give up on what you love? There is no alternative. If you don't believe you can do something how can you expect anyone else to believe you can?