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[nakotaco]

http://rp-anon-meme.livejournal.com/3744.html?thread=8389792#t8389792

I'm so angry that I don't even know how to react anymore. I mean, I really don't. Is it just totally impossible to let this go? Seriously?Watch as, yet again, no-one defends me, and no-one

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[kriscynical]

I had that mindset about getting self esteem from reality until I was a junior in high school; that's when I said fuck it and decided to do whatever the hell I wanted without caring what anyone else thought. It worked, and it turns out that people liked me a hell of a lot better once I started being myself than when I was trying to find worth by changing myself.

I know you've been getting really bogged down with not getting good parts in the productions you've tried out for and that does suck. I've never made it into a single show or contest that I have ever submitted my work to, and while I was in school I had some TERRIBLE critiques for almost an entire school year. I've tried to find out what it is that has kept me from getting into those shows and drilled on what I kept getting critiqued on. When it comes to shows, some things are subjective to the point of the judge just not liking what you do and in critiques it can be a grudge amplifying what is indeed a real issue (some of the crits I got were quite valid; it was just the asshole behind it that made it obnoxious). It doesn't always mean that what you do is deficient or bad.

If you think that director hates you at that theatre, have you tried asking what has kept you from getting parts? Even if you don't think what she says is worth a grain of salt as far as feedback goes, listen anyway. Maybe it will make her like you more by just asking. It doesn't mean you have to take it to heart if you think she's full of crap. I've come across people like that, too, but most of the time these people are in the position they're in for a reason, so they're worth at least listening to even if they do play favorites.

You have to believe that you're good and act like you believe you're good and make visible strives to better your skill to other people before anybody else will believe you're good.

[nakotaco]

As far as the theatre department thing goes - that's basically what I've been trying to do for two and a half years. Unfortunately, my faith in myself has never been good enough that I've ever been able to go "well, if I just keep trying, someday it'll get better!"

[kriscynical]

I've been trying to get into shows for almost six years now and have been competing with my artwork in a judged setting for over eight years. You have to keep trying or what's the alternative? Give up on what you love? There is no alternative. If you don't believe you can do something how can you expect anyone else to believe you can?