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I'M COLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just finished watched My Super Sweet Sixteen. Why do girls advertise being a bitch? Why are they proud of being spoiled snobs? Why does our society allow them to act this way? Shesh.
Despite my lack of warmth and my jaded attitude towards teenage girls, I'm in a surprisingly good mood. Up until yesterday I felt like curling up into a corner and dying because I was all paranoid and worried about all sorts of things. Now I am feeling much better. However, time is going way too fast. I have so many things to do, but for some reason I can't remember what they are....
Black Rebel Motorcycle Club and Nada Surf are both going to be playing at The Paradise (Boston's best lounge/music venue) after I settle into Cambridge. I really would like to go to both, but seeing as the BRMC concert is on a Tuesday night (which is also the second day of classes), and The Paradise is across the river which entails that I would have to take the subway, I think I'll have to pass on that one. But Nada Surf is playing on a Saturday night a week later, and by then I will hopefully have found someone to go with me/have figured out the T system so I won't be stuck in downtown Boston at 2 am. YAY!
I have come across a dillema. Ever since I was born, I have been very independent. Maybe not self-sufficient, but I have always tried to keep myself mentally independent. Independent of others, of relationships, of too many responsibilities. Not that I didn't make friends-obviously. I have always had numerous friendships of the highest quality. But whenever I went to a new school, I mentally let go of whatever had happened before. So, typically right now is the time that I should be emotionally and mentally severing myself from people. However, I find that I can't do that now, and I don't want to. The people who I have met and become friends with over the past 4 years mean too much to me to toss them aside. Don't worry, I don't intend on severing myself from anyone this time. If I did, I would be lost. However, there is something exhillirating in the sense of being totally alone, of having a totally fresh start. I need that feeling as well. So, right now I am trying to get myself used to a mental state where I can have it all-where I can still keep up my relationships with others, without feeling that they are hindering my independence. Luckily, with the amazing friends that I have, that should be easy. It will just take some time and some effort to balance the two feelings. I think that what makes this balance possible is that we are ALL going through the same time in our lives, that we are all growing and becoming who we are. I hope that none of you read this and think that I am being cruel to you or that I don't care about you. Nothing could be farther from the truth. I'm having such a hard time dealing with going off to college because I'm going to be separated from you all, and yet I want to stay close to you all. Anyways, I'm not making much sense now, but the jist of this is that I love you all and that college is not going to end our friendships.
I would be so excited about going to Harvard right now if it wasn't for a few people I am going to miss more than California or sunshine or It's-Its or the Hillsdale Barnes and Noble or even my parents.
Oh, and I would just like to apologize to Christina for my comment yesterday that I made when I interupted you just as you were going to say something nice and supportive. I'm sorry! lol :) I love you!
I just finished watched My Super Sweet Sixteen. Why do girls advertise being a bitch? Why are they proud of being spoiled snobs? Why does our society allow them to act this way? Shesh.
Despite my lack of warmth and my jaded attitude towards teenage girls, I'm in a surprisingly good mood. Up until yesterday I felt like curling up into a corner and dying because I was all paranoid and worried about all sorts of things. Now I am feeling much better. However, time is going way too fast. I have so many things to do, but for some reason I can't remember what they are....
Black Rebel Motorcycle Club and Nada Surf are both going to be playing at The Paradise (Boston's best lounge/music venue) after I settle into Cambridge. I really would like to go to both, but seeing as the BRMC concert is on a Tuesday night (which is also the second day of classes), and The Paradise is across the river which entails that I would have to take the subway, I think I'll have to pass on that one. But Nada Surf is playing on a Saturday night a week later, and by then I will hopefully have found someone to go with me/have figured out the T system so I won't be stuck in downtown Boston at 2 am. YAY!
I have come across a dillema. Ever since I was born, I have been very independent. Maybe not self-sufficient, but I have always tried to keep myself mentally independent. Independent of others, of relationships, of too many responsibilities. Not that I didn't make friends-obviously. I have always had numerous friendships of the highest quality. But whenever I went to a new school, I mentally let go of whatever had happened before. So, typically right now is the time that I should be emotionally and mentally severing myself from people. However, I find that I can't do that now, and I don't want to. The people who I have met and become friends with over the past 4 years mean too much to me to toss them aside. Don't worry, I don't intend on severing myself from anyone this time. If I did, I would be lost. However, there is something exhillirating in the sense of being totally alone, of having a totally fresh start. I need that feeling as well. So, right now I am trying to get myself used to a mental state where I can have it all-where I can still keep up my relationships with others, without feeling that they are hindering my independence. Luckily, with the amazing friends that I have, that should be easy. It will just take some time and some effort to balance the two feelings. I think that what makes this balance possible is that we are ALL going through the same time in our lives, that we are all growing and becoming who we are. I hope that none of you read this and think that I am being cruel to you or that I don't care about you. Nothing could be farther from the truth. I'm having such a hard time dealing with going off to college because I'm going to be separated from you all, and yet I want to stay close to you all. Anyways, I'm not making much sense now, but the jist of this is that I love you all and that college is not going to end our friendships.
I would be so excited about going to Harvard right now if it wasn't for a few people I am going to miss more than California or sunshine or It's-Its or the Hillsdale Barnes and Noble or even my parents.
Oh, and I would just like to apologize to Christina for my comment yesterday that I made when I interupted you just as you were going to say something nice and supportive. I'm sorry! lol :) I love you!