Feb 28, 2005 14:41
When I was 10 I had a crush on a boy named Corey.
Corey was best friends with Brian.
When Corey decided to play with me
Brian would say "if you want to be my friend anymore you have to come to my house."
Corey would shrug his shoulders and appologize and leave.
My mother told me that Brian was telling Corey he had to prove his "love"
by following Brian's requirment.
But if Corey was strong enough, and he said "No. I'll see you later."
Brian wouldn't really stop being his friend.
In fact, Brian would have more respect for Corey,
and would stop ordering Corey around.
I explained this to Corey.
Corey told Brian "no" the next time Brian said threatened him
and Brian stopped dead in his track, looked back at us,
shrugged his shoulders and went home.
They became better friends.
Brian didn't really stop benig his friend.
He just stopped threatening Corey.
Today I told Taylor that I felt like if he really loved me
he would decide to give our relationship another chance today.
And not play this silly "what if" game.
And not cause me so much pain.
And not wait for "Then" when it would feel more right to him.
That I felt like I couldn't believe he loved me
if it was okay to him to hurt me this much.
If he could risk losing me like this.
After a long silence he told me "no"
He needed to do this.
And he was going to.
And one day maybe-hopefully-he would be back.
And I have never respected him more.