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i vowed that now that everything had settled down with my stomache and my surgery and whatnot, that i wouldn't miss any more babysitting jobs, because i was aware that i was in danger of loosing my job. Now, instead of go to my job today i have to cancel because i have to drive an hour find my car, fix it, and get home. why didn't i do this earlier? well. I went to bed at 8. so concidering. 11 is pretty early. well, of course this had to be the last straw. and she finally confronted me. and she's mad at me. and i am in danger of losing the job. which breaks my heart. because i love that job, and the last thing i ever ever want to do is leave on a bad note.
i hate this... I want to die.
i hate this... I want to die.