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omg again i hate my fucking parents. they are being the biggest assholes ever. i've been cleaning up and doing things im supposed to and my mom comes into my room out of nowhere and is bitching at me saying "TURN THE COMPUTER OFF TURN THE COMPUTER OFF"and i was in the process of shutting it down already because i was about to go out, and i said "i am turning it off!" and she was like "DON'T GIVE ME EXCUSES. DON'T GIVE ME BULLSHIT" and i told her the fucking truth!!! then she was yelling at me (my sister was @ the movies) saying that we are both fat asses who sit around doing nothing and stuffing our faces and that we're spoiled rotten. holy fucking shit. i've been cleaning up. i clean up everything she asks me to and melissa doesnt do half as much as i do,yet i get yelled at. another thing, i have eaten half as much as i do during the school year, if even, during the summer. today i had ramen noodles for lunch (just the plain noodles) and ate some broccoli and rice for dinner cause i didn't really like the chicken my mom made so that's it. and shes like "ur stuffing ur face." if i have 2 pieces of broccoli and 4 spoonfuls of rice. holy shit. so anyways, she was yelling at me saying i gave her all of these bullshit excuses when i dont give her any excuses. i tell her the fucking truth and she takes it as if i dont. it was because of her that i cut myself on my birthday and it's because of her anytime i do so now. i'm not flat out saying that i do, but IF i did, it would be because of her. SHE is the bullshitting liar. she told my sister that if she cleaned her room, that her and her friend could go to the movies. so her AND her friend spent last nite until about 1 am cleaning her room and part of today and so they went to the movies. well my mom out of nowhere tonight as she's bitching @ me goes into my sisters room, throws everything everywhere, and takes the computer out. theres a huge pile in the middle of my sisters room now, and i think my mom even broke some stuff. my sister spent all last night cleaning her room, and my mom let her do what she said she could, yet she threw everything everywhere and told her 2 clean it up again. FOR NO FUCKING REASON!! thank God i didnt go to the movies because i dont want to come home to that. she says we sit around doing nothing, but she doesnt know why. WELL HERE'S WHY. SHE WON'T FUCKING DRIVE US ANYWHERE IF WE HAVE PLANS AND SAYS SHE HAS TO "WORK" WHICH IN HER TERMS IS SITTING ON HER COMPUTER PLAYING POPPIT AND CALLING HER SISTER TO FIND OUT WHO'S TAKING HER MONEY NEXT. ITS TOTAL BULLSHIT. THAT'S WHY MY DAD DRIVES ME EVERYWHERE BECAUSE MY MOM JUST DOESNT WANT TO FOR NO REASON. MY DAD EVEN KNOWS THIS BUT PRETENDS NOT TO. IT FUCKING PISSES ME OFF!!!!! I'M SO FUCKING MAD RIGHT NOW..........GGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR........ !#@(*&%#$&*$&@*$&*!)%!#$%!$!#$@$*@$&@$%@*$^ @$@*$.......... sorry...i'm just realllly mad right now...and through this whole time when i've been crying or wanting to do some type of harm to something i've had no one to talk to about it so i'm just venting it here. this is why i HATE SUMMER AND I HATE VACATIONS AND BREAKS FROM SCHOOL. I FUCKING HATE IT!!! i can't wait till firespark. i just want to be out of here. ANDREA-i dont know if i can still hang out tomorrow. my mom prolly won't let me. JENN-i dunno if i can see POA on friday because my parents prolly wont take me or let me KIM-if u read this when u get back, i'm not sure if my parents will let me go to chris's recital with you, but since u'd be giving me a ride, i might be able to. not sure yet. call me sometime when u can when ur home (tho u wont be till friday.) anyways, i g2g. i think someones coming. bbl...if not, then my parents have probably taken the computer or something...bye