It has been a while
I am not completely sure how long it has been, but long enough I suppose. I left Los Angeles. It was cold and dirty and in a completely intuitive sense I new that I wasn't supposed to be there. Now I am back home in Spokane and things are going 'all-in-all' just fine. I am still alive, doing well in school, working, and trying to get more involved in the world around me. When I really force myself into it I realize why I sheilded myself from reality for so long. It is difficult to have a shred of hope for our future sometimes and the emotional baggage I feel from everywhere around me is oppressive at times. I met someone wonderful, though he wouldn't necessarily agree right now. He, we and I are in a weird place right now, or rather we are no where trying to find a place in the world, the right place. Until then, I suppose I will just keep on keepin' on and hope that I don't collapse in exhaustion before I get there.