carma
it is funny how carma comes around, 2 intertwined mastaces ask for friendship the last time they did I was leaveing thins time I am leaveing it is my chans to let go and hold on I hope I can dump some carma here " life is change. growth is optional choose wisely." ( Karen Kaiser Clark) if I cut ties will I cut carma? how will i react? can I step above and beoned my past? or would it be better to take it on the other side? hined site is 20/20.
ok abby said that for a reason.
cuz the only person i got a hold of on july4th when i was upset was her.
so she was the only person i freaked out to besides sandra and sandra was a totally different story.
abby was the only one who talked to me and hung out with me the day before then had to listen to me cry the next day that you had called and said "i dont give a shit anymore"
and abby knew about the promise i made to myself that i broke.
and i havent talked to her so somehow she found out i broke my promise and left me a message all pissed off for not calling her and telling her seeing as how she was the only person who knew and im getting extremely close to abby....or was getting.
so dont call abby bad names cuz shes just lookin out for me. just like i look out for her.
btw r u goin 2 andrew's grad party? i might be able to manipulate my way into shoiwung up for a couple of minutes....to drop off his card off course!=]
if so im calling andrew on the way to get his address.
so if ur there and u hear andrew get that call...
both of you get out of sight,
that way i would have to "go and find andrew" so i could see you..
and if your out of sight there is a greater chance that i could stay longer.
i hope that i get to see you 2maro
its freaking wierd and aggrevating knowing that you are here and i could be hanging out with you all the time but cant cuz of mis parentals.
and currently i am in more trouble then i have ever been in EVER! i seriously dont think it could get any worse. so my whole regard to the rules is pretty low rite now. ive been breakin alot of them lately. and its kinda fun-e that for once i really dont care. i think it scares my parents a lil. but the only reason i havent asked you to come over again is cuz the last thing i wanna do is get you in trouble. cuz my dad is pretty pissed off @ u cuz of the ladder. but he doesnt know i snuck u in my room. i played it off as i only snuck out. and that i had snuck out only once before and walked around the sub with you but then got freaked out and went home. so he;s not as mad as he could be. but w/e he'll get over it.
and yeah i made a deal with my mom that if i get an A in summer school and finish all my AP homework and act more mature and blah blah blah...i could possibly see you before you leave. like if u hav a going away party. (omg i might actually be able to meet your family!?!?!?, lol, sorry daydreaming) but thats what i mean my working my butt off. ive been goin 2 all my mom's parties and working on my AP crap and ive been paying attention in class and this guy is basically doin everything he can so everyone in that class has an A. i just got to start working on my room, which i guess i have cuz i had a random cleaning burst and cleaned out one of my dressers the other night cuz i was bored.
anyway im done talking
you prolly havent read all of this anyway
lol.
i wouldnt have.
Ti amo. I hope i see you soon.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kalan
Date: Jul 16, 2006 1:44 AM
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Alexa, just call me convict...
Date: Jul 15, 2006 2:41 AM
once again i am amazed by you.
after everything, how shitty my parents have treated you, the whole 3rd breakup, THE COPS!, and now we cant see each other and your leaving and you still wanna stay with me. even after the fact that when you dexided you even wanted to be with me you were laying on my floor for like ever sorting your thoughts?
now i say im sorry you wasted your time and you dont have to anymore.
and your like fuck it ill wait for you.
holy shit.
i love you.
well listen.
im working my ass off rite now so ill be able to see you.
eventually.
but that just pisses me off.
ill answer every letter you write me immidiatly
and ill spend everyday with you once you come back from basic.
i already know how ill do that with out my parents throwing a kuniption.
and im gonna spend the night with you @least once cuz abby owes me an alabi.
but seriously.
i miss you so bad.
and i dont know what its gonna be like once your gone.
but u had better believe that ill be here whenever you come home.
and i want to talk to you.
just to hear your voice.
but i dont wanna call and wake u up and i dont wanna call during the day cuz i dont know if ur working or not.
and i cant call if im with my family so.
but i did steal my bro's cell and my fam thinks he lost it again so they arnt looking for it.
so you can call me on that ne time and if i dont answer ill call you back ASAP.
453-8087
ti amo mucho.
(wow i talk alot, i just realized that)
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kalan
Date: Jul 14, 2006 1:24 PM
----------------- Original Message -------------
I love u to and u r my gf I will have fun but if u were talking about other girls the thought makes me sick if I dont see u befor I live I will see u when u r 18
abby is is a fucking cunt but she told me that she think I am bad for u. but I miss u to u can call me any time sunday ( past like 12 it is 4:30am right now I think I mite seep in a bit ) but I miss yor voice to. oh I know u want to see me but don't put your self out u sed u were working your but off? don't if u don't have to .
ok abby said that for a reason.
cuz the only person i got a hold of on july4th when i was upset was her.
so she was the only person i freaked out to besides sandra and sandra was a totally different story.
abby was the only one who talked to me and hung out with me the day before then had to listen to me cry the next day that you had called and said "i dont give a shit anymore"
and abby knew about the promise i made to myself that i broke.
and i havent talked to her so somehow she found out i broke my promise and left me a message all pissed off for not calling her and telling her seeing as how she was the only person who knew and im getting extremely close to abby....or was getting.
so dont call abby bad names cuz shes just lookin out for me. just like i look out for her.
btw r u goin 2 andrew's grad party? i might be able to manipulate my way into shoiwung up for a couple of minutes....to drop off his card off course!=]
if so im calling andrew on the way to get his address.
so if ur there and u hear andrew get that call...
both of you get out of sight,
that way i would have to "go and find andrew" so i could see you..
and if your out of sight there is a greater chance that i could stay longer.
i hope that i get to see you 2maro
its freaking wierd and aggrevating knowing that you are here and i could be hanging out with you all the time but cant cuz of mis parentals.
and currently i am in more trouble then i have ever been in EVER! i seriously dont think it could get any worse. so my whole regard to the rules is pretty low rite now. ive been breakin alot of them lately. and its kinda fun-e that for once i really dont care. i think it scares my parents a lil. but the only reason i havent asked you to come over again is cuz the last thing i wanna do is get you in trouble. cuz my dad is pretty pissed off @ u cuz of the ladder. but he doesnt know i snuck u in my room. i played it off as i only snuck out. and that i had snuck out only once before and walked around the sub with you but then got freaked out and went home. so he;s not as mad as he could be. but w/e he'll get over it.
and yeah i made a deal with my mom that if i get an A in summer school and finish all my AP homework and act more mature and blah blah blah...i could possibly see you before you leave. like if u hav a going away party. (omg i might actually be able to meet your family!?!?!?, lol, sorry daydreaming) but thats what i mean my working my butt off. ive been goin 2 all my mom's parties and working on my AP crap and ive been paying attention in class and this guy is basically doin everything he can so everyone in that class has an A. i just got to start working on my room, which i guess i have cuz i had a random cleaning burst and cleaned out one of my dressers the other night cuz i was bored.
anyway im done talking
you prolly havent read all of this anyway
lol.
i wouldnt have.
Ti amo. I hope i see you soon.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kalan
Date: Jul 16, 2006 1:44 AM
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Alexa, just call me convict...
Date: Jul 15, 2006 2:41 AM
once again i am amazed by you.
after everything, how shitty my parents have treated you, the whole 3rd breakup, THE COPS!, and now we cant see each other and your leaving and you still wanna stay with me. even after the fact that when you dexided you even wanted to be with me you were laying on my floor for like ever sorting your thoughts?
now i say im sorry you wasted your time and you dont have to anymore.
and your like fuck it ill wait for you.
holy shit.
i love you.
well listen.
im working my ass off rite now so ill be able to see you.
eventually.
but that just pisses me off.
ill answer every letter you write me immidiatly
and ill spend everyday with you once you come back from basic.
i already know how ill do that with out my parents throwing a kuniption.
and im gonna spend the night with you @least once cuz abby owes me an alabi.
but seriously.
i miss you so bad.
and i dont know what its gonna be like once your gone.
but u had better believe that ill be here whenever you come home.
and i want to talk to you.
just to hear your voice.
but i dont wanna call and wake u up and i dont wanna call during the day cuz i dont know if ur working or not.
and i cant call if im with my family so.
but i did steal my bro's cell and my fam thinks he lost it again so they arnt looking for it.
so you can call me on that ne time and if i dont answer ill call you back ASAP.
453-8087
ti amo mucho.
(wow i talk alot, i just realized that)
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kalan
Date: Jul 14, 2006 1:24 PM
----------------- Original Message -------------
I love u to and u r my gf I will have fun but if u were talking about other girls the thought makes me sick if I dont see u befor I live I will see u when u r 18
abby is is a fucking cunt but she told me that she think I am bad for u. but I miss u to u can call me any time sunday ( past like 12 it is 4:30am right now I think I mite seep in a bit ) but I miss yor voice to. oh I know u want to see me but don't put your self out u sed u were working your but off? don't if u don't have to .