consumed
sometimes getting my words out is just so hard. my life seems to be falling apart around me. one minute im fine the next i dont know if i can handle it. i find that now im just becoming frustrated with everything. i now find that i hate myself for buying into all the lies. i hate that i put on 20 lbs in the past year and that i let the stress of someone elses problem get to me but it did. ive been going to the gym at least 5 times a week for going on 4 weeks now and nothing seems to be working. we went to the beach today and i couldnt even get into a bathing suit in front of strangers.