Why wait?

[nacracket27]

I absolutely hate how life is going right now. Everyday is pretty much the same. Everday i feel like im waiting for answers that wont come. Alot of days i wonder what im holding on for. Is he really worth the wait. Is it worth so much pain. I feel like the worst is over now (at least this time around).. but will things really get better overall. Or will it be fine for a month then get to the same point again? I really dont think i can be here anymore if this is going to repeat itself every few months. Everytime this happens i protect myself a little more and i feel like i lose a little bit of my love for him each time and i get hurt a lil more each time. Its a hurt that doesnt go away. I do my best to let it go but its always there.

When youve been hurt by someone you love the pain never really goes away.

I mean i'd wait forever for him, don't get me wrong. I love the boy to death.... but i cant hurt for forever...