Damn I suck.
I haven't even started school yet and already I'm downing on myself. I got no idea what's gonna happen this semester...there's a lot of different factors at work and all of them look like they could just go crashing into eachother. There's 2 different girls right now who have my mental wheels turning like crazy trying to figure them out and what's gonna happen between me and them and I keep telling myself to stop being such a moron and realize that none of what I'm thinking is actually gonna happen but I can't. I can't because hope is a disease I can't help but be infected with, and yeah I know how totally emo that sounds but it's totally not so shush, it's just a morbid analogy >_< But ANYWAY. What exactly is one supposed to think when someone they thought wanted nothing to do with them anymore is initiating conversations with me and wants me to take classes with them? I mean, am I just crazy, or hopeful, or *desperate*, or does that indicate that maybe they realized they brushed me off a little too fast and want to give it another shot? It's confusing, man.
This happens to me way too much. I can deny it all I want, I guess the truth is that I really want a g/f and I'm never gonna escape that till I find a way to make it happen and happen right. Weak. But like I said last semester, I'm in the right place to make it happen, right? XD Haha, RIGHT. Sure. =P
(the tired mood would be why this is more stream of ideas and less sentence)
This happens to me way too much. I can deny it all I want, I guess the truth is that I really want a g/f and I'm never gonna escape that till I find a way to make it happen and happen right. Weak. But like I said last semester, I'm in the right place to make it happen, right? XD Haha, RIGHT. Sure. =P
(the tired mood would be why this is more stream of ideas and less sentence)