Painless

[naamah_darling]

I have finished the second benefit box, and have started on the third.

Meanwhile, in Idaho, time is running out. The wolf has seen its last day of protection under the Endangered Species Act, and officials have now proposed lowering the price of a license to $9.75 for Idaho residents.

Less than the price of dinner at a sit-down restaurant.

Comments

[flameelf]

Hopefully the drool factor will make up for anything logic finds lacking in the movie, but it IS beautifully photographed!

I'm with you, Sweetie. I've struggled with this "I can't make a living doing the things I am talented to do" thing for too long, as well as just knowing my sensibilities require much more protection and support than they actually get. It's no wonder I've spent the whole of this miserable period screaming and wailing (I almost put "whaling"!!) and feeling as if my nerve endings are overly-tightened piano wire just about to break. I feel as if life owes me a Sargon. *laughs*

Honestly, if I had the ability to "be" what I am, I would never be out of black Victorian clothing...but then, I knew I was born both before my time and well beyond it all at once as a child. I don't BELONG here, which is why I rail about being left here. I tell myself God isn't through with me, or else I'd be able to just GO to the next level...and yet the things I know I'm supposed to be doing CANNOT get done in my current situation.

Sometimes I wish I'd been born stupid and happy. Not smart enough to know what wasn't getting done or that I had some calling on my life. Ignorant and dull and easily pleased. THAT would have been the least painful life, but instead, I was born with an IQ through the roof and the miserable melancholy that most artists struggle with.

Sheesh...

But YOU are poised in a great place. Your website is up, and once you are discovered by more people, you'll make a good go of it, I feel most certain.

Kudos, love! I am in awe of your precious soul!

Nechtan :)

[naamah_darling]

I do believe you're here for a reason, too. Part of what makes you perfect for the task you were given to do, whatever it is, is doubtless also that which makes you unhappy here.

If we weren't unhappy with how things are, what motivation would there be to change things? To create?

It's a cold scrap of comfort. I wish for you, for me, for everyone like us, to at least be effective in our tasks, if not eternally joyous.

(The movie, incidentally, was sublime.)

*sigh*

[flameelf]

*sigh* I hear you.

I think that a lot of us here don't belong. Maybe naamah will one day lead us though that hidden door?

Don't mind me, I'm in a wierd place at the moment.