Why does everyone in this world,search and search for love for it only to be taken from you one day?
Hey there,
Well its really late, Im really tired and so upset. I had a awful tragedy in my family today. One of the many in the last year so far we have lost 9 people in one year. I can say I wasnt extreemly close to any except one of those, and the one today. She is my aunt and she lives right next door to me. She is a wonderful person and very, very close to me. She is like a "second mom" to me. I feel blessed to have known the person she was and the person she will no longer be. She is only 50 and had a massive stroke. To me that is TOO young to go through what she did today. If you would have saw her and talked to her you would have thought she wasnt a day over 30. But for some reason God gave her a bad heart. A battle she has fought for years and years,and today it got the best of her. She will never speak again nor ever walk,that is if she makes it through these 72 hours. The doctor basically told us tonight "just wait till she dies" whatever that means. She has no chance of making it unless a mircale comes along. I can say all my life I never really knew if there ever was a such thing as god. I mean I always wondered and questioned only because its programmed in my head just like everyone else's about God. Today I stepped back and looked at my life a little different I can say in this one day something inside of me changed. I veiwed my life and God totally different as I did yesterday. If there is God I know he heard us today. I've never prayed so much in my life and neither has my family Im sure. I never had brothers or sisters and her children are my "brothers and sisters" as far as im concerned we are all very close probably one of the closest families you would ever meet. Today that showed, in so many ways we all pulled together for her. To show her how it was to be strong and not give up. I hope with all my heart she doesnt give up. I cant say I blame her if she does. What she is now is nothing compared to how she was yesterday and she ever will be again. In heaven she will be "Aunt Vonnie" again and for that I hope they take her. We will miss her every day and think about her often. But something inside of me today believed in heaven and believe's she will be better off. I guess we just have to wait and see what tomorrow brings. Matthew to you baby, thank you for being so kind and sweet. As I've said before you are an angel sent to me. You have proved that with everything I've put you through already. All I can say is stand by me and be what you are,and I promise to give you everything I have and can. Thank you, thank you for being so kind to me really. If it takes everything I have or ever will have I promise to give you everything back in return. Everything you give me I will give more I promise. Well I said enough now and I really need to be getting in bed. Its been a long day.
always,
me
Well its really late, Im really tired and so upset. I had a awful tragedy in my family today. One of the many in the last year so far we have lost 9 people in one year. I can say I wasnt extreemly close to any except one of those, and the one today. She is my aunt and she lives right next door to me. She is a wonderful person and very, very close to me. She is like a "second mom" to me. I feel blessed to have known the person she was and the person she will no longer be. She is only 50 and had a massive stroke. To me that is TOO young to go through what she did today. If you would have saw her and talked to her you would have thought she wasnt a day over 30. But for some reason God gave her a bad heart. A battle she has fought for years and years,and today it got the best of her. She will never speak again nor ever walk,that is if she makes it through these 72 hours. The doctor basically told us tonight "just wait till she dies" whatever that means. She has no chance of making it unless a mircale comes along. I can say all my life I never really knew if there ever was a such thing as god. I mean I always wondered and questioned only because its programmed in my head just like everyone else's about God. Today I stepped back and looked at my life a little different I can say in this one day something inside of me changed. I veiwed my life and God totally different as I did yesterday. If there is God I know he heard us today. I've never prayed so much in my life and neither has my family Im sure. I never had brothers or sisters and her children are my "brothers and sisters" as far as im concerned we are all very close probably one of the closest families you would ever meet. Today that showed, in so many ways we all pulled together for her. To show her how it was to be strong and not give up. I hope with all my heart she doesnt give up. I cant say I blame her if she does. What she is now is nothing compared to how she was yesterday and she ever will be again. In heaven she will be "Aunt Vonnie" again and for that I hope they take her. We will miss her every day and think about her often. But something inside of me today believed in heaven and believe's she will be better off. I guess we just have to wait and see what tomorrow brings. Matthew to you baby, thank you for being so kind and sweet. As I've said before you are an angel sent to me. You have proved that with everything I've put you through already. All I can say is stand by me and be what you are,and I promise to give you everything I have and can. Thank you, thank you for being so kind to me really. If it takes everything I have or ever will have I promise to give you everything back in return. Everything you give me I will give more I promise. Well I said enough now and I really need to be getting in bed. Its been a long day.
always,
me