Calm
I've calmed down a little now. The supervisor said I can do half days when I need to. She will let me do my same schedule the week I get back from Europe so I can have a half day that first weekend of June when I want to go tubing w/my friends while Annelie and Monica are in town. I can't wait to see them! I also can't wait to go to Europe! It's like perfect timing: I get to go hang out in Europe for 10 days and see places I've always wanted to see and then when I get home, my friends who I haven't seen in a long time will be here! Plus, I get to see Nine Inch Nails! Woo-hoo! Now if only SSA would call. I called them yesterday and my old boss said they were still interviewing people. What's up w/that? They have the perfect person for the job right here! She also said they haven't gotten the official authorization to hire someone. She said the big boss is in Dallas trying to talk them into it or something. I'm worried that I'm not gonna get the job b/c I don't speak Spanish, which really pisses me off. People should freakin' learn English in this country anyway, and there are plenty of people in that office who speak Spanish already. Plus, I'm working on learning it. Sorry if I was too busy going to college and getting a degree. I hope that doesn't keep me from the job. I'd like to be making some good money while I study the language. Of course I haven't studied in a while; I've been lazy. I know I already know it pretty well. If I just sat down and studied every day, I could learn it pretty quickly. I'm just all self-conscious about my pronunciation and stuff. Maybe my bilingual friends can help me here. People talk too fast and I can't understand them and then I'm afraid of saying the wrong thing when I answer. I guess I just need to get more confidence. I mean, if someone says, "Quieres cerveza?" I can say, "Si!" You know, w/the accent mark over the i. There's another thing. I think I'm too analytical. Damn my literature-loving mind. :) Yeah, but anyways, I'm really excited about Europe and about getting a new job and about seeing my friends so hopefully, finally, things will start to work out a little better than they have been.