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wish me luck im gonna end it .. i hope nothing goes horribly wrong.. but i kno this is what i have to do for me. i cant stay in this relationship ive lost the feelings i once had. i still love him but its different. and its gonna hurt and im gonna prob be a mess but i kno its wat i have to do. and to add to this weve decided that we are going to put cloey to sleep she keeps peeing in the house and shes to much for us to handle and theres just to small of a chance that shes gonna get a home. so im not having the best day.
ugh i donno anymore... to many fights.. no trust... i cant take it.. i always feel guilty for doing things when i kno im not doing anythin wrong .. like givin colby a ride home after work nothin wrong wit that.. but to him there is.. so i feel guilty or that im doin somethin bad that im not. its like every other day we fight. and atleast once a week its a big fight. he had the nerve to call me materailistic and a golddigger! b/c i said sometime i would like a flower or other romantic tokans of ur affection... it dont have to be expenses he could just pic a flower outa the ground and hand it to me. or write me somethin.. i dont think its a horrible thing to ask. but i guess he thinks its being materailistic. well if it is then i guess everyone has to be every once in a while. he gets mad that i dont call ( yet i do and when i call he aint there) so i said well id call more if u had a cell..( cuz then id actually get him ) and i guess thats bein materailistic too i donno how but to him it is.. its like im sorry i dont wanna piss of ur roomates like ur roomates gfs piss off u. so i told him i need to take a break and he just wasnt havin that he couldnt put his feelings aside for 2 sec and listen to what i need to do. not what he wants to happen. its like why should i stay wit u if ur constantly mad at me and im constantly mad at u.. and i kno u will never trust me.. what kinda relationship is that?? 6 months from now u still wont trust me.. u may want to but its somethin u cant help... i donno what to do. i kno what i SHOULD do but its soo hard esp cuz he makes it 10 times more dif. and i do love him but hes makin me miserable half the time. i mean theres been good times and i def aprecaite the stuff hes gotten me or done but it dont give him excuses to treat me like shit. well i donno
works awsome i love it , its my refuge. even tho its annoying i love it.
Rachel
ugh i donno anymore... to many fights.. no trust... i cant take it.. i always feel guilty for doing things when i kno im not doing anythin wrong .. like givin colby a ride home after work nothin wrong wit that.. but to him there is.. so i feel guilty or that im doin somethin bad that im not. its like every other day we fight. and atleast once a week its a big fight. he had the nerve to call me materailistic and a golddigger! b/c i said sometime i would like a flower or other romantic tokans of ur affection... it dont have to be expenses he could just pic a flower outa the ground and hand it to me. or write me somethin.. i dont think its a horrible thing to ask. but i guess he thinks its being materailistic. well if it is then i guess everyone has to be every once in a while. he gets mad that i dont call ( yet i do and when i call he aint there) so i said well id call more if u had a cell..( cuz then id actually get him ) and i guess thats bein materailistic too i donno how but to him it is.. its like im sorry i dont wanna piss of ur roomates like ur roomates gfs piss off u. so i told him i need to take a break and he just wasnt havin that he couldnt put his feelings aside for 2 sec and listen to what i need to do. not what he wants to happen. its like why should i stay wit u if ur constantly mad at me and im constantly mad at u.. and i kno u will never trust me.. what kinda relationship is that?? 6 months from now u still wont trust me.. u may want to but its somethin u cant help... i donno what to do. i kno what i SHOULD do but its soo hard esp cuz he makes it 10 times more dif. and i do love him but hes makin me miserable half the time. i mean theres been good times and i def aprecaite the stuff hes gotten me or done but it dont give him excuses to treat me like shit. well i donno
works awsome i love it , its my refuge. even tho its annoying i love it.
Rachel