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kay so last night i spent the night at brants house with theresa because his mom is out of town for the weekend. jon didn't come over because brant couldn't get ahold of him. so i was like fine whatever and just hung out with them and had a good time. well around two, victor, brant's friend, called and asked if him and shane could spend the night. so like an hour or less went by and they showed up. i fell asleep and so did theresa. like two hours or so later i wake up and brant and victor are doing stupid shit to shane. and yeah they were watching some recordings brant taped of random shit...later theresa woke up and we all somehow ended up watching this porn flick. don't ask...and yeah. after a lot of laughs and jokes, we were kind of tired and what not and theresa kept crackin jokes about a 4sum, which led to victor crawling up on brants futon or whatever where him, theresa, and me sat. he sat to the left of me and theresa was basically on top of brant. victor was trying shit and i just kept putting his hand down...but i didn't tell him to back off in a serious tone. he asked why and i said i barely knew him. brant decided to jump in with "you didn't know jon either" which pretty much cracked me up and i said i liked him though....brant ended up telling me he remembered jon saying he just used girls for pussy, nothing more. i felt like shit. and yeah. ended up with victor fingering me...alot. we went into brants other room in the basement which is right across the room we were previously in, neither had doors heh. he kept at that and what not...after a lot of moaning and him saying shh you're being too loud they'll hear you, i got to thinking about how i felt like a bit of a stupidfuckingwhoreslashcuntbitch; i told him to stop. he did and went up stairs. i followed behind like five mins later and we just messed around, not like that. i knew he was mad at me and i felt bad for leading him on. we were crackin up hella bad with shane there coz that kid is fuckin' crazy lol. seriously...MAJOR ADD, wowza. we kicked it and i had a really good time just hangin' out with them and victor being the sick fuck that he is lol. me and him ended up laying on the floor with each other. spooned and messed around some more. he was still kind of mad coz he said i gave him blue balls, which made me laugh even more. somehow i ended up giving him a handjob, complicated at first since of the broken finger lol. we managed...didn't finish up the job, oh well. after a lot more joking and shit, he laid on top of me...i was laying on my stomach. he's a huge fucking flirt, that's all i'm gonna say...and yeah. don't know what else to say cept brant's niece came over and started bitching like she was the shit when she's only 12 ughh. called up her grandma who then called up devans [the bitch niece] mom who's brants' older sis [he's 17, almost 18]. we all had to leave. theresa's dad came to pick me and her up, victor and shane rode away on their cute little bmx'ing bikes lol. i got dropped off at my place. now here i am. hopefully we'll be able to spend the night at his place again...
and ooh. rad song katie showed me....
HEIDEROOSJES LYRICS
"Nothing's Wrong"
Long time, no see, I'm doing fine,
yeah, thank you
That's nice, you look great, don't wanna know
what I go through
Hard times, much pain, you will never know,
no one ever does
I stay cool, will act tough, I'll smile along
for you 'cause
Nothing's wrong....except for me falling apart
Nothing's wrong....it's tearing pieces of my heart
Nothing's wrong....except for me falling apart
Nothing's wrong....but I fell down right from the start
Let's laugh, let's drink, let's just pretend
that I feel good
But at night, it gets to me, hits me like
a piece of hardwood
It's wrong, I feel fucked, can't play the clown
no more, no
I quit, find help, I'm getting out of
my own freakshow
Nothing's wrong....except for me falling apart
Nothing's wrong....it's tearing pieces of my heart
Nothing's wrong....except for me falling apart
Nothing's wrong....but I fell down right from the start
Big boy is calling out for help
Big boy is calling out for help
join my journey
Come on, take a ride
Walk with me through the valley of fear
Nothing's wrong, I'm doing fine
Nothing's wrong, nothing is....
and ooh. rad song katie showed me....
HEIDEROOSJES LYRICS
"Nothing's Wrong"
Long time, no see, I'm doing fine,
yeah, thank you
That's nice, you look great, don't wanna know
what I go through
Hard times, much pain, you will never know,
no one ever does
I stay cool, will act tough, I'll smile along
for you 'cause
Nothing's wrong....except for me falling apart
Nothing's wrong....it's tearing pieces of my heart
Nothing's wrong....except for me falling apart
Nothing's wrong....but I fell down right from the start
Let's laugh, let's drink, let's just pretend
that I feel good
But at night, it gets to me, hits me like
a piece of hardwood
It's wrong, I feel fucked, can't play the clown
no more, no
I quit, find help, I'm getting out of
my own freakshow
Nothing's wrong....except for me falling apart
Nothing's wrong....it's tearing pieces of my heart
Nothing's wrong....except for me falling apart
Nothing's wrong....but I fell down right from the start
Big boy is calling out for help
Big boy is calling out for help
join my journey
Come on, take a ride
Walk with me through the valley of fear
Nothing's wrong, I'm doing fine
Nothing's wrong, nothing is....