i almost lost this one...
everything was going alright yesterday until i got home. i called him to let him know i got to my house safely, but he didnt answer the phone. he called back, but i wasnt able to answer because i was a bit busy in the kitchen, plus, i had my phone on vibrate. i had almost 20 missed calls from him and about 12 messages. he was begging me to answer his calls, and that i was making a big mistake of not picking up. the last 2 messages i recieved was "its over" and "leave me alone. dont even try talking or seeing me tomorrow". ouch. it hurt me so. i called him a few times, but he never picked up.
today, i called him at work and told him that im going to his house to talk to him.
got to his place, and i waited until he was done boxing... for 45 minutes.oh, we talked alright. we both cried too.
yes, you could say that i dont want to be without him. we've shared so much this past year, and i cant let it go. i couldnt believe that it seemed so easy for him to say it... to say that its over with me and him. i couldnt let it go without hearing it and knowing that it was it he really wantsed. i need to see it in his face, his eyes, and his body language. i cried for almost 3 hours, i think. i couldnt help but to keep on thinking about everything ... the things we did, places we've been to, the love we showed for each other. i couldnt give up on it so easily. i needed to know for myself. i broke down on him. i told him how i felt... i told him how i cant be without.. i'd be nothing. he's my everything. i love him.
while arguing in the garage, he said that my love for him isnt there anymore and that he loves me more than i love him. got it wrong baby. i love him just as much. i wouldnt be at his house every single day to keep him happy. for him to not have a bad day after coming home from work. when he's sad and crying, im there to wipe his tears. im there when he needs me..most of the time. how could he say that?
he's everything to me. he changed my world. he brought light and changed my perspective on love. i love him more than anything.. i'd do anything for him... anything to keep him happy.
i sat on his lap and hugged him after he came up from behind me and squeezed me. i hugged him and cried some more. couldnt take the thought of losing him. what, where, how would i be without him? so i asked him to tell it to my face that its over. i felt his hands twitch, i felt his body flinch.. and he couldnt look into my eyes for more than 10 seconds. that's when i knew he couldnt say it. ..when he did talk, he said, i just want you to know i cant live without you. he started crying.. he said he was thinking about how he was sad and alone before i came along.. and now that he's happy, he doesnt want to go back where he started. he said it hurts. not being able to trust anyone..
i understand now... "when you love someone, you have to learn how to let them go."
for some reason, today, i felt like i was ready to let him go. i just needed him to say the words and ill leave him for good. i told him, once you tell me, today will be last day he sees me.
i cried some more.. and he said im here for you right now. RIGHT NOW? what about tomorrow? what about the day after that? will he be there?
i talked. he listened. i said what i had to. i love him for always.
he said he needed the drawings back.. he needed the pictures back. [i found this funny, cause i didnt understand him at first].. then he said.. i want you back. i need you back.
"you and me, right?"
he couldnt let go of me for a long while..
i love him and i know he loves me just as much.
another BIG fight. i hope it wont happen again.
today, i called him at work and told him that im going to his house to talk to him.
got to his place, and i waited until he was done boxing... for 45 minutes.oh, we talked alright. we both cried too.
yes, you could say that i dont want to be without him. we've shared so much this past year, and i cant let it go. i couldnt believe that it seemed so easy for him to say it... to say that its over with me and him. i couldnt let it go without hearing it and knowing that it was it he really wantsed. i need to see it in his face, his eyes, and his body language. i cried for almost 3 hours, i think. i couldnt help but to keep on thinking about everything ... the things we did, places we've been to, the love we showed for each other. i couldnt give up on it so easily. i needed to know for myself. i broke down on him. i told him how i felt... i told him how i cant be without.. i'd be nothing. he's my everything. i love him.
while arguing in the garage, he said that my love for him isnt there anymore and that he loves me more than i love him. got it wrong baby. i love him just as much. i wouldnt be at his house every single day to keep him happy. for him to not have a bad day after coming home from work. when he's sad and crying, im there to wipe his tears. im there when he needs me..most of the time. how could he say that?
he's everything to me. he changed my world. he brought light and changed my perspective on love. i love him more than anything.. i'd do anything for him... anything to keep him happy.
i sat on his lap and hugged him after he came up from behind me and squeezed me. i hugged him and cried some more. couldnt take the thought of losing him. what, where, how would i be without him? so i asked him to tell it to my face that its over. i felt his hands twitch, i felt his body flinch.. and he couldnt look into my eyes for more than 10 seconds. that's when i knew he couldnt say it. ..when he did talk, he said, i just want you to know i cant live without you. he started crying.. he said he was thinking about how he was sad and alone before i came along.. and now that he's happy, he doesnt want to go back where he started. he said it hurts. not being able to trust anyone..
i understand now... "when you love someone, you have to learn how to let them go."
for some reason, today, i felt like i was ready to let him go. i just needed him to say the words and ill leave him for good. i told him, once you tell me, today will be last day he sees me.
i cried some more.. and he said im here for you right now. RIGHT NOW? what about tomorrow? what about the day after that? will he be there?
i talked. he listened. i said what i had to. i love him for always.
he said he needed the drawings back.. he needed the pictures back. [i found this funny, cause i didnt understand him at first].. then he said.. i want you back. i need you back.
"you and me, right?"
he couldnt let go of me for a long while..
i love him and i know he loves me just as much.
another BIG fight. i hope it wont happen again.