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So we start the new corps tomorrow. Im not excited. I will back it up, but i am just not excited.
Im very stressed and it shows.
1) ACE stuff... trying to help plan changeover, and get shut down at EVERY idea thats mine. Interesting that i was appointed to a position that the group doesnt respect my opinion or my position as an equal in the group.
2) Corps.. Being in the Corps, in a low position i get no say but a lot of work. Isnt that the way life is just going to work anyways?
3) RA.. I want to be a good RA and show my qualifcation for the position. But i feel like i have so much working against me that it will be hard to work at my full potenial.
4) Relationships... too busy, and everything comes before me. Wheni try to be optimistic, i also get SHUT DOWN!
I think i will die of anxiety attack of expecting too much from myself and my life. I dont think ive ever felt more alone. Theres nothing anyone can do or say, im just so stressed out. Ive been trying to relax, and it doesnt work. Cause then its the oppourtunity cost. I get mad at myself becuase i feel like i could have been doing something more productive.
Friends season 9 came out today. I think im going to go buy it. Something fell through. (it always dies when it comes to me)
Maybe i should consider a new profession. Or become a quiet nobady again. That was easy.
Im very stressed and it shows.
1) ACE stuff... trying to help plan changeover, and get shut down at EVERY idea thats mine. Interesting that i was appointed to a position that the group doesnt respect my opinion or my position as an equal in the group.
2) Corps.. Being in the Corps, in a low position i get no say but a lot of work. Isnt that the way life is just going to work anyways?
3) RA.. I want to be a good RA and show my qualifcation for the position. But i feel like i have so much working against me that it will be hard to work at my full potenial.
4) Relationships... too busy, and everything comes before me. Wheni try to be optimistic, i also get SHUT DOWN!
I think i will die of anxiety attack of expecting too much from myself and my life. I dont think ive ever felt more alone. Theres nothing anyone can do or say, im just so stressed out. Ive been trying to relax, and it doesnt work. Cause then its the oppourtunity cost. I get mad at myself becuase i feel like i could have been doing something more productive.
Friends season 9 came out today. I think im going to go buy it. Something fell through. (it always dies when it comes to me)
Maybe i should consider a new profession. Or become a quiet nobady again. That was easy.