ENOUGH
This has been stored up for too long. I just cant take this abuse anymore. Rob has hurt me just way too much. God these are some of the last things he said to me, and then the newest where I havent talked to him AT ALL and he wrote about me in his melo so maliciously. I DID NOTHING TO HIM.
Here's from melo g-spots-->
iamthelostcause Date: 2004-05-13 12:58:42 [ hide ] ~A laugh is a laugh...But a scream and a half~you won't have anything to complain about. there's nothing between us anymore. i am a man trying to forget his fucked up past. and you are the past. bye
iamthelostcause Date: 2004-05-13 12:16:19 [ hide ] ~A laugh is a laugh...But a scream and a half~if you don't enjoy smoking then why start in the fucking first place? and what fucking friendship? i'm not throwing around anything. only throwing out. you were my past. but now you are nothing but memories. hopefully to be repressed. you were all i ever dreamed of. but now you have turned into a nightmare. smoking is no escape from anything. it's a pitiful way to die slowly. it's a worse habit than self-mutilation. they are poor excuses for escapes. bye.
iamthelostcause Date: 2004-05-13 11:56:37 [ hide ] ~A laugh is a laugh...But a scream and a half~i find it so hard to believe you are so against smoking if you are a smoker now. and all i'm fucking saying is it's over. everything. forever. i still had some hope left we could be friends in the future. but no more. bye.
Now here is from Livejournal, remember, this was on another person's lj-->
... xflowersbleed 2004-05-17 12:31 (link)
love doesn't shine through your actions. in fact, it's quite the opposite. you gave up far more than you should have, you gave up far more than possible. and there are things you could have done to not have me angry at you, but that's in the past. forgiveness isn't a possible option.you made it so the sacrifice made was you, from my life. and yet you don't have the right to make a decision like that in my life, things like that are things i have to decide. but you persisted. and as a result, you aren't in my life anymore.you are nothing to me. just a past i wish i could forget. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)
Re: ... myxruina 2004-05-17 12:40 (link)
so is this who the mystery person is? The one whom I love more than anything? I just wanted to make you happy. All I have is love for you. I just wish you could have seen it. I'll always love you. I did everything I could. But this is the way you think of me..and beforehand thought of me as a psycho..You really do hate me dont you? You are my world. You were my everything.I prayed and prayed that you could give up your anger for me..and maybe just see me and find out if you really have no love left for someone who was willing to move the earth and moon and stars for you.I hope you'll always remember that I love you..I'll always love you. I'll scream it from a mountain. But I know it will do no good.. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)
Re: ... xflowersbleed 2004-05-17 13:07 (link)
yes i am the mystery person. and yes you did try to make me happy, but then that disappeared the moment i brought up the break. from then on there you changed for the worse.and i don't even need to back up my opinion in this case, all i have to do is look at that one day in english class, or that one saturday in the mall. love isn't an issue anymore, it's survival.i WAS your world. i WAS your everything. how can i still be anything if i don't talk to you, or just knowing what i think. i am nothing to you anymore, i am just something you are still trying to hold on to. well guess what, there isn't anything to hold on to still. you're looking for my hand, but all you'll find is my middle finger.you won't get me back. you won't find my love anymore. it's died, as has your sanity. and Sophie, you are a psycho. mostly everyone agrees with me. a person does not return to the prison of which they escaped, willingly. and i won't be dragged back to you. you can do or say nothing to get me back. threaten to kill yourself all you want. i don't care anymore.you can't guilt me in to coming back with all your threatening to kill yourself. you'll find no emotion from me. i don't care anymore about that. you can go ahead and do it. all you will be is just another fucking stupid dumbass thinking they can't live anymore. and if you think that shit, you are already dead.life is meant to LIVE. not to fucking regret or hold on to something. stop being stupid thinking there's anything to hold on to with me. i'm gone for good, there's no coming back this time. so get over it.
God..and now from his melo-->
"Another thing is all that's going on with Sophie.
Listen to me and listen to me fucking good, i don't care anymore. She can do anything she wants and i wouldn't care. Sure i'd feel hurt if she killed herself. But if she wants to be stupid, let her.
People say she needs a friend, but she needs a love. She wants her fairy tale prince. Which she isn't going to get.
The only thing she's ever probably going to get is a fucking straight-jacket. Because she needs to get serious help."
God..how could someone who meant so much to me do this to me? I cant..I just cant...
Here's from melo g-spots-->
iamthelostcause Date: 2004-05-13 12:58:42 [ hide ] ~A laugh is a laugh...But a scream and a half~you won't have anything to complain about. there's nothing between us anymore. i am a man trying to forget his fucked up past. and you are the past. bye
iamthelostcause Date: 2004-05-13 12:16:19 [ hide ] ~A laugh is a laugh...But a scream and a half~if you don't enjoy smoking then why start in the fucking first place? and what fucking friendship? i'm not throwing around anything. only throwing out. you were my past. but now you are nothing but memories. hopefully to be repressed. you were all i ever dreamed of. but now you have turned into a nightmare. smoking is no escape from anything. it's a pitiful way to die slowly. it's a worse habit than self-mutilation. they are poor excuses for escapes. bye.
iamthelostcause Date: 2004-05-13 11:56:37 [ hide ] ~A laugh is a laugh...But a scream and a half~i find it so hard to believe you are so against smoking if you are a smoker now. and all i'm fucking saying is it's over. everything. forever. i still had some hope left we could be friends in the future. but no more. bye.
Now here is from Livejournal, remember, this was on another person's lj-->
... xflowersbleed 2004-05-17 12:31 (link)
love doesn't shine through your actions. in fact, it's quite the opposite. you gave up far more than you should have, you gave up far more than possible. and there are things you could have done to not have me angry at you, but that's in the past. forgiveness isn't a possible option.you made it so the sacrifice made was you, from my life. and yet you don't have the right to make a decision like that in my life, things like that are things i have to decide. but you persisted. and as a result, you aren't in my life anymore.you are nothing to me. just a past i wish i could forget. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)
Re: ... myxruina 2004-05-17 12:40 (link)
so is this who the mystery person is? The one whom I love more than anything? I just wanted to make you happy. All I have is love for you. I just wish you could have seen it. I'll always love you. I did everything I could. But this is the way you think of me..and beforehand thought of me as a psycho..You really do hate me dont you? You are my world. You were my everything.I prayed and prayed that you could give up your anger for me..and maybe just see me and find out if you really have no love left for someone who was willing to move the earth and moon and stars for you.I hope you'll always remember that I love you..I'll always love you. I'll scream it from a mountain. But I know it will do no good.. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)
Re: ... xflowersbleed 2004-05-17 13:07 (link)
yes i am the mystery person. and yes you did try to make me happy, but then that disappeared the moment i brought up the break. from then on there you changed for the worse.and i don't even need to back up my opinion in this case, all i have to do is look at that one day in english class, or that one saturday in the mall. love isn't an issue anymore, it's survival.i WAS your world. i WAS your everything. how can i still be anything if i don't talk to you, or just knowing what i think. i am nothing to you anymore, i am just something you are still trying to hold on to. well guess what, there isn't anything to hold on to still. you're looking for my hand, but all you'll find is my middle finger.you won't get me back. you won't find my love anymore. it's died, as has your sanity. and Sophie, you are a psycho. mostly everyone agrees with me. a person does not return to the prison of which they escaped, willingly. and i won't be dragged back to you. you can do or say nothing to get me back. threaten to kill yourself all you want. i don't care anymore.you can't guilt me in to coming back with all your threatening to kill yourself. you'll find no emotion from me. i don't care anymore about that. you can go ahead and do it. all you will be is just another fucking stupid dumbass thinking they can't live anymore. and if you think that shit, you are already dead.life is meant to LIVE. not to fucking regret or hold on to something. stop being stupid thinking there's anything to hold on to with me. i'm gone for good, there's no coming back this time. so get over it.
God..and now from his melo-->
"Another thing is all that's going on with Sophie.
Listen to me and listen to me fucking good, i don't care anymore. She can do anything she wants and i wouldn't care. Sure i'd feel hurt if she killed herself. But if she wants to be stupid, let her.
People say she needs a friend, but she needs a love. She wants her fairy tale prince. Which she isn't going to get.
The only thing she's ever probably going to get is a fucking straight-jacket. Because she needs to get serious help."
God..how could someone who meant so much to me do this to me? I cant..I just cant...