Aug 08, 2008 17:29
i woke up today after dreams of being a fox in the wilderness
suddenly i want to listen to bjork
i always save my bjork albums in case they show up on shuffle or something, but i never actually listen to the album
i just keep them there in case one day i'll say yes
open up the blinds keep the door locked and consider the past
what am i made of, anyway?
i think that's something i need to consider proper if i'm to go anywhere
i am liable to fail, its a natural process. but where are the lessons? how do they work?
i'm acting childish and ignoring simple facts
i've spoken about the impossibility of love without first loving yourself, and yet here i am another desperate man clinging to a past that doesn't satisfy him
maybe i was young, small and naive but i was at least well adjusted
and now is another chance to do that part of me justice
yesterday i drove my mother's car to target in search of a wheel for my bike
well yeah they didnt have the wheel but it felt good to even just be inside of target in miramar before it closed
walk around with people i don't know breathing the air conditioned air
choosing a bottle of wine and returning some strings
i saved like 8 dollars on the wine as opposed to publix (haha savings!)
its hard to get properly motivated about anything in this god damned house
i'm going to drink wine tonight and see what happens
things look good