What a night
Man, the pistons lost again! By 21! Dammit! That sucked balls. I was pissed off about that. My throat is still hurting. This morning I did'nt work cause of it. I can talk now at least, but my throat is like on fire. It hurts. I need to work in the morning. What else happened? Oh yeah, things got weird during the first part of the game. Everybody was smoking pot and I did'nt know what had happened to melissa or rob or even randy. It felt weird. I was confused. Then I went outside and they were outside sitting down. just Something seemed weird to me. But everything was fine. Just certain people were being loud. Then later on, Melissa...Randy... Amanda... and Nick W. all left. I felt weird cause Rob and that New Justin kid and even MIKE... all were hooking up. There I was standing all alone as usual. It pisses me off. That makes me feel ugly. Even though certain people disagree, it's just how I feel. I felt outta place. Why is it that I'm still the friend guy? If girls want a damn supermodel, go look somewhere else. I wanna just have someone that likes for who I am, not how I dress or whatever. I'm about to say something that's probably not my business but whatever, that's part of the reason why mike was all over that girl he just met. Cause she was hot!! Thats bull, he always told me different. But ya know eventually the true colors shine. The proof is in the pudding. So whatever, but I still felt outta place. That's also what is driving me to lose weight. I just keeping replaying those thoughts in my head. But I'm also lieing to myself, I still want someobodu to like for my personality, not how much I weigh or whatever. But then again, I am not quite healthy. SO I could use a few good workouts. But there is just so much emotion inside me. It sux. I think I might be able to get someone decent when I have a steady job. That's also why I'm trying to kick ass at the radio station. So I can get a slary paid job. And finally live on my own and what not. I sometimes think I should just focus on that right now and worry about girls later. Which is also true. First you get payed, then you get layed, then you live life. I'm also still young, so I should'nt worry about it all that much. It's just when I see all my firends with somebody, and I'm not. It hurt's. I can't say I'm lonely, cause I'm not. So thank god for that. I have three really really KICK ASS firends! So I'm fine. So I dunno man. Anyways, I gotta be up for max and erma's in the morning, so I'm out. Later.