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Eleaeomancy [doppelgänger]

Oct 03, 2011 08:52

It occurs to me that I've been going about things all wrong, clinging to the grudges from my past instead of moving on. I've been so fixated on my old hatreds that I've barely lived. It's time to release myself from those fetters, let go, and hopefully move on. Maybe find a life and a man that don't remind me of the mistakes I made before ( Read more... )

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[filter: Natalie] prophetiaemrys October 3 2011, 16:14:39 UTC

Is that why you've been avoiding me? I remind you of past mistakes?

[Filter: Marshall] [doppelgänger] noladyofthelake October 3 2011, 16:27:14 UTC

Yes. I know you're Merlin, and much as I'm drawn to you this would never work.

[Filter: Natalie] prophetiaemrys October 3 2011, 19:14:43 UTC

Oh. Well, since I'm a mistake I'm guessing you're who I hoped you had not been Nimue? Not as bad as some you could have been.

I wish things could be different... I really liked you.

[Filter: Marshall] [doppelgänger] noladyofthelake October 3 2011, 19:22:22 UTC

Wait, this is going all wrong. I never said you were a mistake, just that you remind me of ones I made in the past. It's different.

I really liked you too, Merlin, but with our past it seems like a bad idea to keep this going.

[Filter: Natalie] prophetiaemrys October 3 2011, 19:29:57 UTC

Oh, sorry. It seems that currently reminding someone of a mistake means that I am a mistake. Or that's what I'm taking from some others from my past.

Couldn't we just continue to ignore who we were and continue with the fun we were having? I thought things were going well. We didn't have to worry about all that past life things.

I know that we cannot just forget, but we are at similar points in our lives now unlike then. Maybe it could work because of that?

[Filter: Marshall] [doppelgänger] noladyofthelake October 3 2011, 19:50:33 UTC

Then let me just state plainly that I don't feel you're a mistake. If anything, I'm the one who did all the wrongdoing back in our shared past, and I feel wretched for that.

I suppose we could try that, although knowing who I am and what I did to you can you honestly say you bear me no grudge? If so, you are a far greater person than I am, which makes me think maybe I was wrong about you before.

There is always that possibility.

[Filter: Natalie] prophetiaemrys October 3 2011, 20:54:43 UTC

If I am sure of anything I believe we both made our fair share of mistakes and wrongdoing then. It was not all you.

I can honestly say there is no grudge now. If I held you to yours then I would have to hold myself to my own from then. I may be a bit more apprehensive now in my actions, but... I would be a hypocrite for spouting forgiveness to the others, really.
Sure our personalities are kin to what they were and our memories are still there, but how long are we to suffer before we realize that a second chance was given for a reason? We found each other once more for a reason, enjoyed each other's company in our ignorance; I could see that as fate's way of saying that we could get past the old.

[Filter: Marshall] [doppelgänger] noladyofthelake October 4 2011, 00:15:29 UTC

Still, I know that I shouldn't have imprisoned you. That was a very extreme reaction.

Your forgiveness means a lot, and in return I forgive you as well. We're both the same but different, and you could be right that this is a chance for us to see what could have been had I not been so ambitious.

[Filter: Natalie] prophetiaemrys October 4 2011, 00:48:19 UTC

I shouldn't have tried to push you away or pushed you so hard. It was my fault in the end.

Your forgiveness means much to me.

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