The Raging Testosterone Floweth Over
Well I tell you what, Saturday night was really something. I got called into work to help Janet make some pizzas for this party and do some register and prep work. I get in there and of course CC has to comment on how hot all of the girls are...yeah...just a note to any male reading this....When a girl really likes you (or even if she doesn't) it isn't a wise idea to talk about how beautiful everyone else is, because that makes her feel like garbage. Women are vain and petty that way. Well anyway, I was helping CC throughout the evening, and he was just being pissy with me, which was a little irritating. He was punching me a little, which didn't bother me, you know how I love that...He told me that one day he was going to hit me really hard. He sounded serious too. Later on that evening he put a stack of boxes up on cutline, and they looked as though they would topple down on us at any moment. I attempted to bring one down for a pizza and he says "I will have quite a chuckle if those boxes fall on you, but if they fall on me I will kick your ass." I reply "Oh, so that is when you will hit me really hard, huh?" "Yeah, with this," he says as he holds up the pizza slicer. "Right in the neck." "That would be interesting," I responded, a little startled. "Too bad I wouldn't live to see it." he says bluntly, "I'll take pictures and mail them to your grave." Charming isn't he? Today he was in a vile mood because he broke up with his girlfriend...Yeah, my head is swimming about that, but let's not go there. Denton was feeling rather violent also the other night. I asked him what was wrong when we were out in the dining room filling our drinks and he just mutters. I asked if there was anything I could do to help and he says "Take this knife- wait, you have your own don't you?" I showed him my knife. "Take it and cut Janet's throat! Cut her throat!" he demanded. "He places his hand on the side of my neck for a moment. "No! Right there!" he growls. "Right in the jugular! She won't be able to get that stitched up!!" Needless to say there is mass disgruntlement within the walls of Geo's these days...But seeing CC like this today...Wow, I was terrified and all shaky inside...I couldn't even concentrate on what I was doing...I was afraid he would hurt me...and I am still afraid of what the future holds...I don't really know why...But I'm pretty nervous right now..CC just makes me very very nervous...But I am so intrigued by him...He is so dark, and brooding....I just love it, but I'm mortified at the same time...I'm messed up. Oh well, you should be used to my eccentric behavior by now. Besides, it isn't like I have any of my demented writing in here. This journal barely grazes the surface of my thoughts...It isn't all light and fluffy underneath, trust me. Well, cheers!