connections
today, during my visit to las cruces, i was sitting at kamy's center waiting for jen to visit. espy was there and asked about the bracelets i was making. (or maybe i just offered the info. not sure which.) i told her about how they are for a care package for women who go to the hospital for a d&c after a miscarriage and leave empty-handed. how the bracelets are for mom and to represent baby.
she told me about one of her babies miscarrying at three months and how she had a wanted a girl so badly and already had two or three boys by that time. and she always had a feeling a that maybe that was her little girl.
when she was out getting lunch, i snuck into her room and gave her a set of bracelets with the pink & blue beads, but more pink. as jen and i were talking was when espy stood next to me, quietly told me "thank you" and hugged me so so hard. afterwards, when it was just us, she showed me that she had put the bracelet on and worried a little but about her sons asking her about it. but she said, "i'll tell them." then she said, "i never even thought to ask if it was a boy or girl, and i don't know if they could've told me. i think i will ask. i will ask that spirit who they were and maybe i will even choose a name." wow! such amazing powerful stuff!
i also went by and saw ruth for a few minutes. she said that i had posted something on facebook "the other day" about loss that really struck her because it was her baby's birthday. she said it was something about angels. on february 21st i posted one of my favorite quotes and an angel in heaven writing my baby's name in the book of life and whispering "too beautiful for earth". she said that her son's name was something like isaiah, but it was said with an "a" sound. like asaiah (asiya).
my baby boy, you continue to touch so many lives. lives in which, if you had lived, you would've been just another baby. instead you are the greatest blessing to anyone who knows of you. i'm so proud of the things you do. of the hearts that you open. of the peace that you bestow on others who have lost babies. i know that you are up there with them all.
she told me about one of her babies miscarrying at three months and how she had a wanted a girl so badly and already had two or three boys by that time. and she always had a feeling a that maybe that was her little girl.
when she was out getting lunch, i snuck into her room and gave her a set of bracelets with the pink & blue beads, but more pink. as jen and i were talking was when espy stood next to me, quietly told me "thank you" and hugged me so so hard. afterwards, when it was just us, she showed me that she had put the bracelet on and worried a little but about her sons asking her about it. but she said, "i'll tell them." then she said, "i never even thought to ask if it was a boy or girl, and i don't know if they could've told me. i think i will ask. i will ask that spirit who they were and maybe i will even choose a name." wow! such amazing powerful stuff!
i also went by and saw ruth for a few minutes. she said that i had posted something on facebook "the other day" about loss that really struck her because it was her baby's birthday. she said it was something about angels. on february 21st i posted one of my favorite quotes and an angel in heaven writing my baby's name in the book of life and whispering "too beautiful for earth". she said that her son's name was something like isaiah, but it was said with an "a" sound. like asaiah (asiya).
my baby boy, you continue to touch so many lives. lives in which, if you had lived, you would've been just another baby. instead you are the greatest blessing to anyone who knows of you. i'm so proud of the things you do. of the hearts that you open. of the peace that you bestow on others who have lost babies. i know that you are up there with them all.