WHoa
Its been a while since ive written huh?! Well a lotta stuff has gone down... could take 471 years to detail the whole thing so ill give a BRIEF update of my life:
1. Ive seem to become a lot closer to Jess this year and its awesome. I have slept over her house for like the last 4 Saturdays in a row. It really is good times and i feel like i can be 100% myself with her. We might have bonded a bit more because of the more personal things we've shared. and if you're in my family, brian and shannon, you know how hard it is to tell someone about that shit. Igloo '03~~ HAHA Skiing gonna be a blast. Yeah jokes! lol.
2. I went and saw my older brother in Maine for the deployment ceremony. It was a little awkward and even though he sternly said otherwise, I think he is crazy-scared. I was a lot more closer to him when i was younger and due to other issues, the fam dropped contact with him. well, now knowing that he IS DEFINITELY going to Iraq to do the same job as Jessica Lynch is sooo scary. I balled my eyes out when a lady sang that "I'm proud to be an American where at least I know I'm free and I won't forget the men who died and gave that right to me..." song. Oh man. I am so regretful that we havent been in each others' lives and i am determined to change that when he comes back next year.
3. School is bad. I have good grades somehow, although I feel like i already have senioritis. I dunno, i mean i just CANNOT apply myself this year for some reason and i hope that college isnt the same. speaking of which, i havent finalized my essays or sent out any applications. the whole thought makes me rather disgusted and i want to throw up on my shoes. URGH
4. Justine apologized which i respect so much and altho i do accept i feel skeptikal about it. i mean as much as i want to believe her, its hard. i have a trust issue and once its broken, its damn hard to gain back.
5. Saturday night was my work Christmas party and the plans were me and Jess go, then leave for hockey game, then go back to party and Ry-Ann meets us there, then sleep at Ry-Ann's house. Well everything was running smoothly, Jess and I went and had dinner and i won a $50 gift certificate to Kohl's... then we went to the car and freakin changed out of our dresses into hockey apparel in the car. It was so funny!!!! So we went to the hockey game and they lost, but we had fun anyway. Then we waited for Andrew to change so we could leave. Took a while and we changed back to our dresses in the car again and just in time for the last hour. In the meantime, Ry-Ann got pretty carried away at her own work Christmas party and had a good time with Mike R, i guess. So she was too intoxicated to come to mine, which kind of upset me. but the thing that let me down most was she said she wasnt gonna drink because she had papers to write and didnt wanna do them hungover and she knows how bad mike is for her and he always ends up hurting her. and she went against her own word. when i mentioned that i was disappointed, she said that she cant always be perfect. but to me, thats like driving over a cliff and saying, "i cant always drive well." i dunno,, im not going to argue with her about it, i just wanted her to know how i felt. and if ya cant be honest with your best friend, you're fucked. so jess and i danced for what it was worth with the drunk secretaries and attorneys with whom i work. it was fun and humurous.
6. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMIE! BIG ELEVEN, WHAT WHAT!!??
7. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY DIANA, MY SEXY BITCH! I STILL LOVE YOU EVEN IF IT DOESN'T SEEM SO, AND I SOOOO WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN AT YOUR BIRTHDAY PARTY. I LOVE YOUR PARTIES; THEY ARE SO MUCH FUN. I HOPE U DONT HATE ME GIRL!
8. Christmas is a'coming!! AHHHH! i thought i would be right on target with gifts this year since i went shopping so damn early and spent loads of money. but, hell noooooo!
9. Shannon is a'coming! Can't wait til you're home big sis. And good luck on those finals. Just remember you're my role model so u just have to do good! haha
10. Michelle, im here 24/7. HOLLA!
11. SOnia wears man pants with pee-pee holes!! LOL <3
12. I bought socks with snowmen on them and there is a candy cane placed right where it shouldnt be on the snowman, with a bell at the bottom of the candy cane. i dunno, its pretty funny. i might send it in to jay leno or something!! hahaha! those sock people are perverted or just blind. im not sure which!
My life in a tiny, little nutshell. (probably missing loads of important stuff)
1. Ive seem to become a lot closer to Jess this year and its awesome. I have slept over her house for like the last 4 Saturdays in a row. It really is good times and i feel like i can be 100% myself with her. We might have bonded a bit more because of the more personal things we've shared. and if you're in my family, brian and shannon, you know how hard it is to tell someone about that shit. Igloo '03~~ HAHA Skiing gonna be a blast. Yeah jokes! lol.
2. I went and saw my older brother in Maine for the deployment ceremony. It was a little awkward and even though he sternly said otherwise, I think he is crazy-scared. I was a lot more closer to him when i was younger and due to other issues, the fam dropped contact with him. well, now knowing that he IS DEFINITELY going to Iraq to do the same job as Jessica Lynch is sooo scary. I balled my eyes out when a lady sang that "I'm proud to be an American where at least I know I'm free and I won't forget the men who died and gave that right to me..." song. Oh man. I am so regretful that we havent been in each others' lives and i am determined to change that when he comes back next year.
3. School is bad. I have good grades somehow, although I feel like i already have senioritis. I dunno, i mean i just CANNOT apply myself this year for some reason and i hope that college isnt the same. speaking of which, i havent finalized my essays or sent out any applications. the whole thought makes me rather disgusted and i want to throw up on my shoes. URGH
4. Justine apologized which i respect so much and altho i do accept i feel skeptikal about it. i mean as much as i want to believe her, its hard. i have a trust issue and once its broken, its damn hard to gain back.
5. Saturday night was my work Christmas party and the plans were me and Jess go, then leave for hockey game, then go back to party and Ry-Ann meets us there, then sleep at Ry-Ann's house. Well everything was running smoothly, Jess and I went and had dinner and i won a $50 gift certificate to Kohl's... then we went to the car and freakin changed out of our dresses into hockey apparel in the car. It was so funny!!!! So we went to the hockey game and they lost, but we had fun anyway. Then we waited for Andrew to change so we could leave. Took a while and we changed back to our dresses in the car again and just in time for the last hour. In the meantime, Ry-Ann got pretty carried away at her own work Christmas party and had a good time with Mike R, i guess. So she was too intoxicated to come to mine, which kind of upset me. but the thing that let me down most was she said she wasnt gonna drink because she had papers to write and didnt wanna do them hungover and she knows how bad mike is for her and he always ends up hurting her. and she went against her own word. when i mentioned that i was disappointed, she said that she cant always be perfect. but to me, thats like driving over a cliff and saying, "i cant always drive well." i dunno,, im not going to argue with her about it, i just wanted her to know how i felt. and if ya cant be honest with your best friend, you're fucked. so jess and i danced for what it was worth with the drunk secretaries and attorneys with whom i work. it was fun and humurous.
6. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMIE! BIG ELEVEN, WHAT WHAT!!??
7. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY DIANA, MY SEXY BITCH! I STILL LOVE YOU EVEN IF IT DOESN'T SEEM SO, AND I SOOOO WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN AT YOUR BIRTHDAY PARTY. I LOVE YOUR PARTIES; THEY ARE SO MUCH FUN. I HOPE U DONT HATE ME GIRL!
8. Christmas is a'coming!! AHHHH! i thought i would be right on target with gifts this year since i went shopping so damn early and spent loads of money. but, hell noooooo!
9. Shannon is a'coming! Can't wait til you're home big sis. And good luck on those finals. Just remember you're my role model so u just have to do good! haha
10. Michelle, im here 24/7. HOLLA!
11. SOnia wears man pants with pee-pee holes!! LOL <3
12. I bought socks with snowmen on them and there is a candy cane placed right where it shouldnt be on the snowman, with a bell at the bottom of the candy cane. i dunno, its pretty funny. i might send it in to jay leno or something!! hahaha! those sock people are perverted or just blind. im not sure which!
My life in a tiny, little nutshell. (probably missing loads of important stuff)